I love me
I used to, anyway
I so much want to be normal
With “normal” problems
And normal fears
I have been better
I don’t know anyone
Anyone real
They’re just words
They aren’t real people
I miss people
Yet I’m scared of them
Scared of what they make me
What I make me
I am by myself
Alone
Even with others
I am inside myself
Fighting to get out
Fighting with e
I want to
I can’t
I can
I don’t want to
I must
Oh?
Must I
I thought I could
I guess I’m just destined to be alone
Within myself
Forever
My only friend
Fighting to get out
Be normal
Be anything
But I’m not
I’m nothing
I’m myself
When all you do is look inward
You miss out on everything outside
That’s me
That’s who I am
How I am
What I am
I wish it were different
It wont be
Ever
This is how I am
By myself
Late at night
Talking to words
Instead of people
Staying inside to talk to words
Instead of
Going outside and talking to people
I wish I could
So much fighting
I am the enemy
Inwards
Looking inwards
It’s a damn lonely place
Inside of yourself
Thoughts echo
Emotions multiply
Pain increases
I am bouncing around inside myself
Looking for an opening
Alas, there4 are few
And when I find one
Somehow the inside looks a lot better
Easier
Less complicated
And still I bounce
Echoing.