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DATE: 10/19/2003 4:23:00 PM

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I felt a little better this morning, but i think i’m slipping back into
it… been feeling nauseous… i should probably eat something… brain
still struggling to find something to obsess over… its a lot of work
distracting myself… can’t give in to it though…
okay…crying does not help, for the record… i really hope tomorrow
will help … i guess maybe i’m counting on things too much…
hopefuly won’t have to deal with this for too much longer, no matter
how things go … i hope my life will wait for me. not that i don’t
have a habit of having major life decisions made for me..
my brain is still trying to bring things back to miss c. can’t think
about it … can’t think about it … won’t help anything anyway, I’m
not exactly objective in my ability to process such issues right now.
its not too comforting that i find myself unable to listen to music…
that’s like… a bizarre twist in my world.
And i still can’t speak… no energy behind my voice, throat hurts…
not that i have much of a reason to, but…
feel like its getting in through the cracks…. must find better
distraction…
maybe tv is it.
still, so cold.

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October 19th, 2003 at 6:28 pm

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