Still can’t just relax and enjoy vacation…in work mode… happens.
Interesting converstaion of the day so far:
SoftLord: 
Diddlms: heeey
Diddlms: u jus wake up?
SoftLord: ja
SoftLord: i think i’m getting sick 🙁
Diddlms: oh hon
SoftLord: my throat hurts
Diddlms: sorry… drink tea
Diddlms: dude
SoftLord: ?
Diddlms: i jus spent 3 hours talking with her grandmother
Diddlms: the woman speaks no english
Diddlms: by friday i should be able to teach a course
Diddlms: needless to say my head hurts
SoftLord: well thats good
Diddlms: so when do u start this new job?
SoftLord: monday
Diddlms: great a nice vacation b4 u start
SoftLord: yup
SoftLord: which is good since at the moment i can’t talk
Diddlms: cant talk? why?
SoftLord: my throat hurts
Diddlms: ahh hurts that much hm?
SoftLord: well i sound like i have the worst hangover ever
Diddlms: ic ic… so what u up to these days? go anywhere see anyone?
SoftLord: no not really…haven’t been feelin like goin out lately… we had this conversation
SoftLord: dont want to have to be someone i’m trying not to be so much anymore
Diddlms: yeah i know. frankly im tired of it to. but its rough cause everone we know is always enjoying drama… so what to do then
..forget everyone and sit at home alone?
SoftLord: also everyone we know is expecting me to always be there for them regardless of any of my own plans wants or needs … the
expectation is ‘oh we’ll just get jeremy to do it’ or whatever.. and i’m not cool with that anymore…i can’t be
Diddlms: of course not. its not right.
Diddlms: i
myself am guilty of not being so nice to you by blowing plans off …
so i am sorry. ive had alot of time to think while i was here… and i
think leaving tvt and comming here was good for me to really gain
perspective on the ones who matter most… you bieng one of them
SoftLord: thanks, i appreciate that, i really do
Diddlms: yes
well …its the truth. my life was so bombarded with bullshit that i
didnt see who mattered most. i tried to distribute my time to everyone
instead i missed on the most valuable
Diddlms: i was running around too much…never settled… never relaxed
Diddlms: i know why i did this-… its because im afraid if i actually sit and stop and think… i will be very sad
SoftLord: I don’t know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody. -Bill Cosby
Diddlms: smart guy. .. brb i need to run out and get smokes … two minutes…
SoftLord: yes… but you might also gain some perspective on certain aspects of your life, enough to be able to change them if you like.
SoftLord: and that on the other hand is something that i will try to always have time for you for
SoftLord: blah
Diddlms: ok sorry..im signing off dani needs the computer love u chat with u soon
SoftLord: you did it again
Diddlms: love u kid
SoftLord: i’m just saying that you did
Diddlms signed off at 11:04:45 A.
