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Mad

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I’m mad at you for creating contradictions, no-win situations and traps for me to make yourself feel better
I’m mad at you for not giving me freedoms i deserve
I’m mad at you for tearing my family apart
I’m mad at you for trying to control me
I’m mad at you for not giving me an outlet for my anger
I’m mad at you for not giving me a safe place to grow up
I’m mad at you for hurting me and my mom
I’m mad at you for not letting me be an adult
I’m mad at you for leaving me with a habit of setting impossible standards for myself
I’m mad at you for stifling my emotion
I’m mad at you for making it possible for me to blame myself
I’m mad at you for showing me that its better to suffer than to change
I’m mad at you for showing me that its better to do without than to indulge, unless it’s food.
I’m mad at you for making connection dangerous
I’m mad at you for not letting me let myself make mistakes
I’m mad at you for making me thing that some of these things arent because of you
I’m mad at you for teaching me to second guess myself at every opportunity

I’m mad at you for not knowing why i’m mad at you
I’m mad at you for not letting me hate you

Written by admin

July 29th, 2004 at 2:25 am

Posted in Family,Poetry