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a look inside my head

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a constant stream of voices from all sides, some hopeful forward-thinking and positive, but those tend to be beat down by the mostly rage-filled smarmy and self-defeating ones both trying simultaneously to analyze the context of, talk me into and talk me out of anything i might be doing and the meta-implications therein both for my self-definition and how I fit with my surroundings in some kind of perverse ourobouros-ian self-feeding confusion spree so convoluted and self-contradictory that its amazing that i can get anything done at all…

maybe thats why i’m such a pop culture and information junkie…cause it distracts me enough that the voices are mostly a dull hubbub…

does that mean if i work through it i wont be as good at my job or as a DJ? (my mind immediately kicks in)… of COURSE… cause without them where would i be… evil always finds a way to rationalize its existance

i just wish i could shut them up long enough to not think myself out of having them shut up long enough to do soemthing about something or give myself credit for having done something or …

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August 4th, 2004 at 10:45 pm

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