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First Night Reflections

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how did i get here
lonely
this is why people get roommates
official end to the meyers family unit
feeling of being alone is a lot closer to the surface
maybe this place is too big for one person
i miss my old room
this place is cold
i feel unprepared
i miss my old room
feels like solitary confinement
i wish i had more familiar things
too much new stuff all at once
homesick
strange noises
isolated
too much too soon
was this really what i wanted?
why does it feel like a failure rather than a step forward
why does it feel like i’ve been banished
should i be on medication
still afraid of asking for help (mailbox key)
i have nobody to talk to without internet access
scared, like sleepaway camp
i want to go home.

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July 3rd, 2005 at 11:19 am

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