– if people only talk to me when they’re bored, that must mean that that is all they value me for
why does my brain try to rephrase the CIV statements as i try to externalize them
why is so much of my life thinking about my life…need to get out of my head
why do i need to convince myself to go out…what is the blockage…
constant invalidation… i “should” go out, people will be dissapointed in me if i dont go out (is that why i stop myself) thought i’d gotten past the craving dissapointment…is that the only ‘real’ response that i got growing up?