Private Journal – Keep Out.
she likes me
i like her
its gonna be fine.
in my brain it feels like it has to be a constant struggle to show my interest at all times so as not to get stuck in ‘the friend zone’ with any woman i’m interested in… now i know realistically thats not a good way to go about it or even something thats effective one way or the other, but thats my old pattern…. trying to break it now, but its scary because i dont want to lose this opportunity
she doesn’t like me back
she loses interes after seeing me again
she doesn’t find me attractive
i dont know how to be open with my feeligns
i can’t figure out how to communicate
i never get to the point where i can share
she sees how damaged i am and loses interest
i dont get to do all the really good boyfriend stuff i’ve been collecting
we both get scared
she loses interest between now and the next date
i lose interest between now and the next time
it all goes really well and i’m happy
what then