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Jeremy Meyers
that was an exhausting day

Laura Meyers
sunday? or yesterday?

Jeremy Meyers
sunday

Laura Meyers
me too – i additionally had the brunch to set up and clean up
i am still exhausted

Jeremy Meyers
emotionally too

Laura Meyers
the brunch or giving away your stuff?
or both

Jeremy Meyers
the day in general i guess

Laura Meyers
like seeing alan’s family in action?

Jeremy Meyers
no. i dunno..lots of people i dont know.. and then having them come and take stuff from my childhood, and being in that place is draining anyway

Laura Meyers
yes – it is draining for me also. for me it seems like an insurmountable mounds of dusty stuff

Jeremy Meyers
i mean, emotionallly…all the stuff that went on there, and the painful memories of living there and stuff

Laura Meyers
there were good memories also

Jeremy Meyers

fine
okay
nevermind
sometimes i just need you to be supportive of me around that kind of thing without trying to minimize it or deflect it.

Laura Meyers
i can’t change the past –

Jeremy Meyers
i wasn’t asking you to
but acknowledging that it was a hard thing for me to go through, and that i have a legitimate right to be drained or uncomfortable around stuff like that is something that i can get frustrated when i dont get from you. thats not the same as wallowing in it or feeling bad about it or shameful or blaming… but often i dont feel like you even feel like its valid for it to still be difficult for me.

Laura Meyers
i hear what you are saying – and I am sorry that you do not feel that i do not acknowledge your feelings around your childhood trauma(s) – I do know how painful it was for you.and that you still are dealing with the pain. I personally don’t feel that a place or thing has that much significance

the challenges are with you

Jeremy Meyers
thats fine, but places or things can trigger emotions.

Laura Meyers
ok – and on top of that the vibe currently at the bond street loft is so depressing

Jeremy Meyers
it was depressing when i was living there too.

Laura Meyers
that is true

Jeremy Meyers
anyway, some acknowledgement would be nice sometimes… i’m not like..obsessing over it every day, but theres a lot of stuff i’m working out in therapy, and i think its important for me to feel like you know that it was a hard time for me and can be compassionate about it.  i’m not asking you to rehash all the stuff that went on or whatever, and i undersatnd youv’e moved on, but it affected me too.

i wasn’t looking for an answer…just something to think about

Laura Meyers

i hear you –

i feel like i was there for you and I did the best I could to help you – your were in a terrible depression and it was very hard to reach you and find a solution – getting you to therapy was the best I could do – and yes of course it was horribly painful for you and for me  — and as a parent I tried all that I thought I could do to help you.

Jeremy Meyers
i’m not saying ‘you didnt do enough and you should feel bad about it stil’.  im saying ‘sometimes things are still emotionally hard for me where they might not be for you, and you might not understand why but id like it if you understood and acknowledged’

Laura Meyers
So when i hear you are having a hard emotional time – instead of me saying look on the bright side – or the equivalent cliche – i should be more empathetic and say that yes I can understand why you are feeling that way.

Jeremy Meyers
yes. or just be aware that these situations can be emotionally charged for me even though they may not reflect how i feel overall or in my current life, and that theres unresolved stuff

Laura Meyers

okay – at my age and stage of life – I realize that vestiges of unresolved issues remain they just don’t have the power they once had

Jeremy Meyers
ok, but we are in different stages.

Laura Meyers
i was just saying . . . like fyi

Jeremy Meyers
i know

Laura Meyers
gotta go to sleep — i love you very much

Jeremy Meyers
ok
thanks
i didn’t meant to be difficult, just something that’s been weighing on me.

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February 16th, 2011 at 12:01 am

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