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Mynde Notes

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there is power (pride?) in not doing what people ask of me, even if it is for my benefit, and i also get to beat myself up.

the power made me “seen” in an environment where i often was not seen or prioritized, attention-wise (growing up)

i need a way to make the resistance less of a charged thing without triggering my resistance

don’t necessarily trust my reactions to things because of my tendency toward self-sabotage, so a challenge to feel what resonates

need a way to move forward without

scary to think about whats on the other side

what am i willing to intend? what would peace do with this resistance?

a lot of inward directed anger about feeling like i’ve anchored myself
– be aware
– name it
ready, open, available

i am excited at the prospect of not feeling and being angry about a self-inflicted anchor dragging me down and also nervous at both the prospect of addressing it after all this time (because it still feels like it needs to be a fight) and what kind of new accountability i’ll be ersponsible for once i dont have that anchor as an ‘excuse’

motivated vs inspiration

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March 11th, 2013 at 12:12 pm

Posted in Coaching Notes

Things I want to work on

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– Being better organized with my priorities

– Valuing my time more

– Feeling more free to act and experiment

– holding less of a perfection-or-nothing attitude

– Taking my needs into account

– Meditating more regularly (find a podcast)

– Improving my commitment to personal growth actions, rather than reading

– Experiencing more

– Not being so hard on myself for what I don’t accomplish

– Not feeling like i’m already too self-indulgent with my time

– More mental clarity about what i’m interested in and capable of

– Being more proactive about finding collaborators

– Putting more out into the world, creating a greater volume of things (blog posts, podcasts, etc)

– Being less distracted by feeds

– Better care of my body (meditating, exercise now that its nice out, hygiene)

– pivot away from ‘how can i get through this day’ and more toward ‘how can i make this day useful, feed my interests, and move my life forward’

 

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March 5th, 2013 at 4:38 pm

Posted in General Discussion