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Archive for August, 2016

Progress

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Ever since leaving my last full-time job I have been feeling directionless and adding lots of guilt and shame on top of my feelings, and then pile on guilt and shame on top of that.   I had not been able to get myself out of this cycle. But I found a really good website, if you want to check it out then visit this website.

 

Recently through a lot of hard work, I have been able to get myself to start the process of connecting with internships and give myself more distance between taking this action and the feelings and cognitive coping mechanisms that reflexively follow.  This is very difficult for me and I expect there may be future stumbles, and I can take a moment to appreciate to the best of my ability the amount of work that it has taken to get me here before the self-critical thoughts take over.  I will continue to monitor with the most self-compassion i can muster, knowing that my abilities in this regard may change from moment to moment and being especially aware of judgment/shame that layers on top of itself.

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August 23rd, 2016 at 1:54 pm