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SoftLord (9:10:19 P): real iced tea, bartender buying you
drinks, hazelnut, the smell of cement after it rains,
the smell of new york in mid-may, knowing that she’s
stealing the t-shirt, being IMed at work and told that
she’s only wearing the t-shirt, spending the day in
central park with a digital camera, sharing a glance
with a total stranger on the street as a tourist does
something stupid, spending a little more to get
something extra special, real-time communication

TheDaliKiss returned at 9:12:04 P.

TheDaliKiss (9:12:04 P): i make my own green tea and carry it
around, my best friend is the bar tender, and hi!

SoftLord (9:12:17 P): *grin* hey you

SoftLord (9:12:39 P): i was totally debating whether
to put ‘green tea ice cream’ on that one


TheDaliKiss (9:12:49 P): lol

TheDaliKiss (9:12:55 P): not a big fan actually

SoftLord (9:13:06 P): oh well…thats it…see ya 馃槈

SoftLord (9:13:23 P): it has to be really good

TheDaliKiss (9:13:25 P): oh no

TheDaliKiss (9:13:32 P): -sniffsniff-

SoftLord (9:13:43 P): *grin* *hands you a box of
tissues*

TheDaliKiss (9:14:09 P): -giggles and pulls out grandma’s lace
hankie-


TheDaliKiss (9:14:21 P): -impish little grin- one must love their
quirks


SoftLord (9:14:28 P): of course

SoftLord (9:14:37 P): otherwise everyone would be
the same


SoftLord (9:14:43 P): it’d be like… you know…. all
those places in the middle


TheDaliKiss (9:14:43 P): exactly

TheDaliKiss (9:15:12 P): why be run of the mill when their
exists the possibility of wonder and enchantment


SoftLord (9:15:27 P): normal = the devil

TheDaliKiss (9:15:37 P): naw

TheDaliKiss (9:15:43 P): i’d love to meet the devil

TheDaliKiss (9:15:47 P): bet he’s pretty cool

SoftLord (9:15:56 P): he hangs out with good
company

SoftLord (9:16:17 P): brb…2secs

TheDaliKiss (9:16:25 P): k

SoftLord (9:19:13 P): back

SoftLord (9:19:14 P): miss me? 馃槈

TheDaliKiss (9:20:03 P): yep[

TheDaliKiss (9:20:06 P): my turn

TheDaliKiss (9:20:07 P): 馃檪

SoftLord (9:20:17 P): i was just gonna say… go for it

TheDaliKiss (9:22:17 P): dinner time

SoftLord (9:22:29 P): ohh… your turn for brb, not to
add to the list


SoftLord (9:22:36 P): i just finished Lombardi’s

TheDaliKiss (9:22:37 P): got the best friend on the couch,
stealing wifi from somebody in the building, me over here, eating
chili

SoftLord (9:22:54 P): lol… my best friend is on her
way over, i have my own wifi, and i just finished
Lombardi’s


TheDaliKiss (9:22:59 P): still woatching field of dreams

TheDaliKiss (9:23:03 P): nice

SoftLord (9:23:11 P): still or again?

TheDaliKiss (9:23:12 P): we’re doing the chili and ribs thing

TheDaliKiss (9:23:15 P): still

SoftLord (9:23:22 P): *sends you Tums*

TheDaliKiss (9:23:24 P): as in, hasn’t left the player

SoftLord (9:23:33 P): ahh… its been out for a bit tho,
i have a copy

TheDaliKiss (9:23:34 P): my favorite movie of all time

TheDaliKiss (9:23:44 P): yeah, but i got paid friday

TheDaliKiss (9:23:45 P): 馃檪

SoftLord (9:23:49 P): you like the magical aspects in
everyday life


TheDaliKiss (9:24:41 P): everybody should

TheDaliKiss (9:24:47 P): the world is full of magical things

TheDaliKiss (9:24:52 P): nobody pays attention

SoftLord (9:24:58 P): s’true

TheDaliKiss (9:25:14 P): -grins- i try to see as much as i can

SoftLord (9:25:33 P): and there is such a thing as a
tesseract


TheDaliKiss (9:26:18 P): omg

TheDaliKiss (9:26:27 P): who are you?

SoftLord (9:26:36 P): Jeremy…nicetameetcha

TheDaliKiss (9:26:42 P): l’engle… i loved those

TheDaliKiss (9:26:46 P): i still have them

SoftLord (9:26:51 P): i figured

TheDaliKiss (9:26:51 P): Jennifer

TheDaliKiss (9:26:57 P): ditto

SoftLord (9:26:59 P): i have mine from junior high
school


TheDaliKiss (9:27:17 P): me too

TheDaliKiss (9:27:22 P): and earlier i think

TheDaliKiss (9:27:25 P): as a child

SoftLord (9:27:59 P): yeah

SoftLord (9:28:04 P): do you have the little ones?

SoftLord (9:28:27 P): or the ones with the yellow
border


TheDaliKiss (9:28:55 P): hummm

TheDaliKiss (9:29:00 P): yellow i think

TheDaliKiss (9:29:33 P): i inherited them from a cousin or
something


TheDaliKiss (9:31:28 P): ‘ello?

SoftLord (9:31:34 P): hey hey

SoftLord (9:31:35 P): sorry

SoftLord (9:31:38 P): had to let Sue in

TheDaliKiss (9:31:41 P): ah

TheDaliKiss (9:31:51 P): i have a dara

SoftLord (9:32:00 P): did you see the wrinkle in time
movie on disney?


TheDaliKiss (9:32:04 P): but mostly i call her ookie or asshole

TheDaliKiss (9:32:17 P): no i didn’t, i haven’t had TV in 6
years


SoftLord (9:32:28 P): you haven’t missed much

SoftLord (9:32:31 P): theres some good stuff tho

SoftLord (9:32:34 P): luckily most of it is out on DVD

SoftLord (9:32:48 P): you’d really like all of the Aaron
Sorkin shows, I think


TheDaliKiss (9:33:11 P): ok

SoftLord (9:33:22 P): he’s an amazing writer

SoftLord (9:33:27 P): SportsNight, The West Wing

TheDaliKiss (9:33:53 P): simpsons, family guy, married with
children

TheDaliKiss (9:34:01 P): muppet show

TheDaliKiss (9:34:04 P): 馃檪

SoftLord (9:34:24 P): mupppppets

TheDaliKiss (9:34:33 P): 45 episodes

SoftLord (9:34:35 P): *looks up at his shelves full of
muppet show figures*


TheDaliKiss (9:34:37 P): on dvd

TheDaliKiss (9:34:41 P): oh my

SoftLord (9:34:44 P): i have ’em on VHS

TheDaliKiss (9:34:52 P): really?

SoftLord (9:34:55 P): and the muppet movie = top 5

TheDaliKiss (9:35:03 P): yup

TheDaliKiss (9:35:08 P): and tresure island

SoftLord (9:35:08 P): yeah…i pre-ordered before they
came out on DVD cause i’m a maroon


TheDaliKiss (9:35:14 P): awww

TheDaliKiss (9:35:21 P): i waited till i wasn’t poor

SoftLord (9:35:26 P): and Labyrinth

TheDaliKiss (9:35:39 P): Bowie

SoftLord (9:35:46 P): not just for bowie in spandex

SoftLord (9:35:47 P): but yes

TheDaliKiss (9:35:56 P): -tries to be discreet in her drooling-
Bowie…


SoftLord (9:35:57 P): i just saw him at jones beach
2wks ago

SoftLord (9:36:01 P): lol…agreed

TheDaliKiss (9:36:02 P): no bshit

SoftLord (9:36:03 P): i’d so do him

TheDaliKiss (9:36:04 P): no shit

TheDaliKiss (9:36:06 P): i was there too

TheDaliKiss (9:36:12 P): omg

SoftLord (9:36:13 P): ?!

SoftLord (9:36:14 P): where

TheDaliKiss (9:37:25 P): dead center, but up a little

TheDaliKiss (9:37:40 P): from the main level aisle

SoftLord (9:37:48 P): orchestra or balcony

TheDaliKiss (9:37:48 P): like 12 rows up or something

TheDaliKiss (9:37:58 P): between

SoftLord (9:38:02 P): i was all the way on the right in
the back of the orchestra


TheDaliKiss (9:38:14 P): i dunno

TheDaliKiss (9:38:19 P): was good

TheDaliKiss (9:38:23 P): great set list

SoftLord (9:38:24 P): yea

SoftLord (9:38:28 P): love polyphonic spree

TheDaliKiss (9:38:51 P): creamed my pants when he went into
station to station and lady midnight


SoftLord (9:39:07 P): it was very amusing how
obviously annoyed he was to be doing ‘china girl’
and ‘modern love’

TheDaliKiss (9:39:15 P): yeah

TheDaliKiss (9:39:34 P): but i love both those song, no matter
what anybody says


SoftLord (9:39:36 P): he hates that stuff

TheDaliKiss (9:39:49 P): i know

TheDaliKiss (9:40:12 P): still thought it was a better show then
december at the garden


SoftLord (9:40:32 P): haven’t seen him since Area2

TheDaliKiss (9:40:45 P): ah

SoftLord (9:41:21 P): but yeah…mmm…bowie

TheDaliKiss (9:41:30 P): my dad took me to both shows

SoftLord (9:41:39 P): i got free tix from work 馃檪

TheDaliKiss (9:41:40 P): he’s so the god of everything cool

TheDaliKiss (9:41:44 P): nice

SoftLord (9:41:53 P): its nice having a cool job 馃檪

TheDaliKiss (9:42:10 P): i really wouldn’t know

TheDaliKiss (9:42:16 P): i just have cool parents

SoftLord (9:42:18 P): hehe

SoftLord (9:42:21 P): thats good too

TheDaliKiss (9:43:06 P): yup

TheDaliKiss (9:43:30 P): mine happen to be great, i lucked out

TheDaliKiss (9:43:48 P): mom taught me how to roll a jay
-grins-


SoftLord (9:44:09 P): my mom keeps trying to get me
to try weed… i just tell her that i dont need
anything to make me more mellow

SoftLord (9:45:06 P): 馃檪

TheDaliKiss (9:45:30 P): that must be nice

SoftLord (9:45:39 P): hehe… are you stressy?

TheDaliKiss (9:45:50 P): kinda

TheDaliKiss (9:45:55 P): in a me sorta way

SoftLord (9:46:00 P): what was your job before
quitting?

TheDaliKiss (9:46:06 P): real estate

TheDaliKiss (9:46:13 P): shady mcfuckers

SoftLord (9:46:17 P): sounds…enthralling

TheDaliKiss (9:46:31 P): i was actually having a good time

TheDaliKiss (9:46:42 P): though shady as shit, very cool anf
fun people


TheDaliKiss (9:47:01 P): and even

TheDaliKiss (9:47:07 P): forgive the typos

SoftLord (9:47:13 P): i knew what you meant

TheDaliKiss (9:47:22 P): i figured, but its polite

SoftLord (9:47:26 P): its grammar i will be anal about

SoftLord (9:47:30 P): um

SoftLord (9:47:37 P): it’s grammar I will be anal about

TheDaliKiss (9:47:44 P): be warned, mine is very creative

TheDaliKiss (9:47:51 P): and i type like i speak seemingly

SoftLord (9:48:06 P): yeah well i like you so I’ll go
easy
馃檪

TheDaliKiss (9:48:11 P): i just love playing with language

SoftLord (9:48:32 P): creative is fine… its the
they’re/their/there and its/it’s stuff that bugs me


SoftLord (9:48:39 P): and ‘perverted’

TheDaliKiss (9:48:43 P): the written word is my first and
truest love and i mispell fluently in 3 languages


TheDaliKiss (9:48:59 P): i have issues with the its it’s

SoftLord (9:49:09 P): which 3?

TheDaliKiss (9:49:12 P): but i’m pretty good with the rest of
them


TheDaliKiss (9:49:20 P): english, french, spanish

SoftLord (9:49:24 P): interesting

SoftLord (9:49:43 P): i know enough Spanish that i
generally get the idea when people are talking
about me in restaurants and think i dont
understnad


SoftLord (9:49:52 P): not enough to be conversant
unless its an emergency


TheDaliKiss (9:50:12 P): works

SoftLord (9:50:26 P): and you know what they
say…you know one romance language…


TheDaliKiss (9:50:32 P): i didn’t really have a choice

TheDaliKiss (9:50:39 P): not as true as they say

TheDaliKiss (9:51:44 P): i’m in Im’s with my friend sitting on
the couch next to each other


TheDaliKiss (9:51:50 P): -giggling-

SoftLord (9:52:07 P): *chokes back, as he stops IMing
sue, sitting next to me with my laptop*

SoftLord (9:52:16 P): are you quoting me?

TheDaliKiss (9:52:43 P): no

SoftLord (9:52:48 P): k

TheDaliKiss (9:52:49 P): being serious

TheDaliKiss (9:53:00 P): she’s stealing wifi from somebody in
the building


TheDaliKiss (9:53:11 P): my computer sucks and i’m poor so
i’m on dialup

SoftLord (9:53:17 P): you poor poor baby

TheDaliKiss (9:53:32 P): -single tear-

SoftLord (9:53:39 P): like the indian

TheDaliKiss (9:53:45 P): and my screen is busted so i’m hooked
up to a moniter


TheDaliKiss (9:54:02 P): but still typing on the laptop

TheDaliKiss (9:54:05 P): 馃檨

TheDaliKiss (9:54:26 P): but i’m a little sacred of how alike
this is getting


SoftLord (9:54:34 P): all of the downside of a laptop
and none of the upside


SoftLord (9:54:39 P): well i’m sure there are some
differences

TheDaliKiss (9:54:50 P): well sure

TheDaliKiss (9:54:54 P): but still

SoftLord (9:54:58 P): you’re a girl and i’m a buy

SoftLord (9:54:58 P): boy

TheDaliKiss (9:55:26 P): which works

SoftLord (9:55:37 P): definitely

TheDaliKiss (9:55:57 P): i need a smiley with horns

SoftLord (9:56:05 P): O:-)

SoftLord (9:56:13 P): with the implication

TheDaliKiss (9:57:35 P): i?

TheDaliKiss (9:57:36 P): imply?

TheDaliKiss (9:57:40 P): neeevvver

SoftLord (9:57:58 P): i find >馃檪 works for horns

SoftLord (9:58:03 P): er…without the graphical

SoftLord (9:58:06 P): >馃檪

SoftLord (9:58:10 P): durnit

TheDaliKiss (9:58:44 P):

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March 24th, 2007 at 8:59 am

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TheEternalMuse (8:54:04 P): hey…i’m afraid to IM
anybody because it says i’m logged on from
elsewhere..which is impossible..I never logged on from
work today.

SoftLord (8:54:20 P): your cell, maybe?

TheEternalMuse (8:54:28 P): i just checked…im not
logged on

SoftLord (8:54:45 P): when you sign on and you’re
signed on from another screen name it usually says
you can type "1" to sign off all theo ther locations

SoftLord (8:54:55 P): did that not happen?

TheEternalMuse (8:55:32 P): hmm..not sure if I did that

TheEternalMuse (8:55:49 P): omg last time…i forgot to
log off from work ..but i had the monitor off

TheEternalMuse (8:55:52 P): and our whole convo ws
there

TheEternalMuse (8:55:55 P): lol

SoftLord (8:55:59 P): heh

SoftLord (8:56:04 P): hope i didn’t say anything
embarrassing

TheEternalMuse (8:56:16 P): oh it was all sorts of
embarrassing. thank goodness nobody saw lol

SoftLord (8:56:24 P): uh oh

SoftLord (8:56:25 P): 馃槈

SoftLord (8:56:46 P): as long as it wasn’t our convo
from sunday night

SoftLord (8:56:49 P): 馃槢

TheEternalMuse (8:57:13 P): lol

TheEternalMuse (8:57:19 P): ricky was a young boy

TheEternalMuse (8:57:21 P): he had a heart of stone

SoftLord (8:57:29 P): that sucks for ricky

SoftLord (8:59:01 P): hearts werent meant to be
stone

TheEternalMuse (8:59:40 P): I really like this song

SoftLord (8:59:43 P): what is it

TheEternalMuse (8:59:49 P): 18 and life

SoftLord (8:59:51 P): oh

SoftLord (8:59:52 P): right

SoftLord (8:59:54 P): sorry

SoftLord (9:00:04 P): just came back from the rock n
roll church offices…thats who i’m spinning for
tomorrow

TheEternalMuse (9:00:21 P): what kind of music are u
spinning

SoftLord (9:00:27 P): stuff you like

SoftLord (9:00:31 P): 80s, rock, goth

SoftLord (9:00:44 P): bowie, depeche mode, t. rex,
guns n roses

TheEternalMuse (9:00:59 P): sweet!

SoftLord (9:01:05 P): should be a fun tim

SoftLord (9:01:05 P): e

SoftLord (9:01:10 P): trying to get trent to show up

TheEternalMuse (9:01:27 P): oh wow..i hope he does

SoftLord (9:02:10 P): it wouldn’t suck

SoftLord (9:02:36 P): a friend of mine knows him, so

TheEternalMuse (9:03:07 P): awesome

TheEternalMuse (9:03:16 P): hey..did u ever like that
song I just want you by ozzy osbourne

TheEternalMuse (9:03:21 P): from the ozzmosis album

SoftLord (9:03:27 P): ozzmosis is my fave ozzy record

TheEternalMuse (9:03:31 P): oh nice

TheEternalMuse (9:03:40 P): not my favorite album, but
certainly akick ass album

TheEternalMuse (9:03:49 P): I got it when it first came
out

SoftLord (9:04:12 P): i bought it after seeing the perry
mason video on mtv

SoftLord (9:04:21 P): that seems like such a long time
ago now, since they played a video on mtv

TheEternalMuse (9:06:10 P): i remember i just want
you..the video

SoftLord (9:06:20 P): i dont ask much, i just want you

TheEternalMuse (9:06:43 P): and see you on the other
side

SoftLord (9:07:09 P): i like ‘ghost behind my eyes’ too

TheEternalMuse (9:07:17 P): yeah, that was awesome

SoftLord (9:07:28 P): zakk’s shredding

TheEternalMuse (9:07:42 P): yes!!!

SoftLord (9:07:53 P): 馃檪

SoftLord (9:07:58 P): i like how you get excited about
stuff we agree on

TheEternalMuse (9:08:05 P): hahaha

TheEternalMuse (9:08:09 P): I’m a music junkie

SoftLord (9:08:12 P): i know

SoftLord (9:08:21 P): i was just saying i like it

TheEternalMuse (9:09:28 P): im listening to mr crowley

TheEternalMuse (9:09:31 P): guitar solo part

TheEternalMuse (9:09:36 P): sends shivers down my
spine

TheEternalMuse (9:09:39 P): guitar solos get to me

SoftLord (9:09:52 P): go put on some dream theater
its like all guitar solos

TheEternalMuse (9:09:58 P): i Kjnow i know

TheEternalMuse (9:10:00 P): lol

TheEternalMuse (9:10:08 P): choice music for music
nerds

SoftLord (9:10:16 P): speak for yourself, i’m a geek

TheEternalMuse (9:10:29 P): im a nerd

SoftLord (9:10:32 P): ok

TheEternalMuse (9:10:35 P): lol

TheEternalMuse (9:10:49 P): I’m definitely nerd

SoftLord (9:10:55 P): nothign wrong with that i guess

SoftLord (9:12:06 P): so miss nerd

TheEternalMuse (9:12:26 P): lloll

TheEternalMuse (9:12:37 P): cuz i do think i have a
poshness to me

TheEternalMuse (9:12:42 P): but i’m a definite nerd

SoftLord (9:12:51 P): ok 馃檪

SoftLord (9:13:03 P): you’re just Sonya

TheEternalMuse (9:13:08 P): sometimes im
sarcastic…and i usually feel bad

TheEternalMuse (9:13:11 P): lol

TheEternalMuse (9:13:14 P): i feel guilt

SoftLord (9:13:27 P): comes from being nicer than
your scene allows, i think

TheEternalMuse (9:13:52 P): I have no scene really

TheEternalMuse (9:13:59 P): I’m a scene whore…i visit
all scenes

SoftLord (9:14:06 P): well thats even worse

TheEternalMuse (9:14:07 P): and then i go into my own
corner

SoftLord (9:14:13 P): gotta play lowest common
denominator

TheEternalMuse (9:14:13 P): i dont belong

SoftLord (9:14:52 P): so yesterday and today talking
with you it hasn’t seemed like you really want any
company in your corner

TheEternalMuse (9:15:04 P): I’m a loner

TheEternalMuse (9:15:08 P): I mean i socialize

TheEternalMuse (9:15:11 P): but then i’m a loner

TheEternalMuse (9:15:22 P): I have lots of friends..but
nobody close

SoftLord (9:15:30 P): are you okay with that?

TheEternalMuse (9:15:33 P): yeah

TheEternalMuse (9:15:38 P): I have this wall up

SoftLord (9:15:41 P): yes i know

TheEternalMuse (9:15:47 P): i mean i always have
invitations and hang outs and stuff

TheEternalMuse (9:15:53 P): but emotionally I dont
really let anybody in

SoftLord (9:16:00 P): yes i know

TheEternalMuse (9:16:09 P): its’ served me well until
now…cant really think of anytime i’ve been really hurt

SoftLord (9:17:22 P): cause honestly… i have friends,
but
anyone thats special to me, i need to know
that they’re going to let me in and vice versa, otherwise i dont necessarily feel like the relationship is worth the effort…if theres only so far i can see the person…i feel like
we’re on this planet to learn about ourselves and to connect with other people

SoftLord (9:17:55 P): i was like that for a long time… would never talk about myself, wouldn’t really let anyone except a few in and even then not that much… and then i realized
how horribly lonely i was

TheEternalMuse (9:18:06 P): see…I’m not lonely

SoftLord (9:18:07 P): and now i’m trying to let people in…certain people that i feel i can trust

TheEternalMuse (9:18:08 P): not at all

TheEternalMuse (9:18:14 P): I choose to be..’alone’

TheEternalMuse (9:18:19 P): i’m not yearning for companionship

SoftLord (9:18:23 P): ok

SoftLord (9:18:27 P): well then, i guess that’s that

TheEternalMuse (9:18:41 P): I think youre awesome and i’d definitely hold you closer than most

TheEternalMuse (9:18:50 P): my friend adam is one of those also

SoftLord (9:19:00 P): thanks, i think you’re awesome too…but i dont know if that can be enough for me

TheEternalMuse (9:19:09 P): wht do you mean

SoftLord (9:19:31 P): thinking about how to explain

SoftLord (9:22:37 P): it says in my myspace profile that i’m good at seeing through peoples BS facades… and thats true… but if i’m with someone or open myself up to someone i
need to know that they’re opening themselves up to me too… because what i end up really being interested in isn’t necessarily someone’s looks or their surface personality, but
what i see inside them…and getting access to that part of someone… what i think people call intimacy… and if i know at the outset that someone is just fine with being totally
closed off from that happening, then it ends up just being me wanting to get behind the wall and resenting the person for not letting me in enough to really kiss their soul, and i
really dont want to resent you…i’ve had a lot of relationships that were like that and they hurt

SoftLord (9:23:27 P): and yeah fine the aesthetic and the humor and the cd collection and everything are definite attractors, but they’re all part of the rest

SoftLord (9:24:36 P): up until 03, i would always have a girl in my life who i was very attracted to where we’d basically be everything-but-the-intimacy dating…except they would
be really dating someone else and i wouldn’t…i’d always be the shoulder to cry on, the person to rant about other boys, the "why can’t i find someone like you"… duckie,
basically

SoftLord (9:25:02 P): but i stuck around because i could see them, what i felt was the ‘real’ them, and that part attracted me

TheEternalMuse (9:25:08 P): wht are you asking of me?

SoftLord (9:25:12 P): and i put myself through such BS

SoftLord (9:30:05 P): i dont really know… i know this kinda seems like our interaction isn’t at this point yet…but … i dunno… i know you dont play games, but i kinda feel
mixed-messagey.. the .. i’m attracted to you but i need to see if somethings gonna happen with the guy who ive been crushing on for a month who i see all the time and doesnt
know i exist (even though for someone to have you on their radar and not act on it one way or the other for a month, i think theyd have to be blind, engaged or just a total
moron), the "you turn me on so much" but stuff gets rescheduled (And yes i know you’re a busy girl)… i guess i just kinda would like to know where you’d ideally see me fitting
into your life for the next few weeks, so i know how excited to be that we’ve met

SoftLord (9:30:50 P): and i’m not blaming you for the mixed signals…i know about the weird transition period stuff and the in a weird place stuff

TheEternalMuse (9:33:07 P): I dont think he doesnt notice me

SoftLord (9:33:11 P): i just cant do the ‘maybe she likes me as a friend maybe she likes me as boyfriend material i guess ill never know until something definitive happens but oh
wait every time i try to see her there are other plans’ thing again… and i know parts of this is not your stuff its my stuff, but you said on friday that we should be honest, so
here i am being honest

TheEternalMuse (9:33:48 P): look i dont want to lead you on because i’m mad about this other guy

TheEternalMuse (9:33:51 P): and i’ve been telling u this

TheEternalMuse (9:33:59 P): and i’m sorry if I was honest to tell u that i am attracted to you

SoftLord (9:34:01 P): but you also told me that i shouldnt back off

TheEternalMuse (9:34:16 P): but i’m mad about t his other guy and i’m not exploring my options right now

TheEternalMuse (9:34:26 P): just focussing on him

TheEternalMuse (9:34:38 P): I cant focus on other options until i know for sure

TheEternalMuse (9:34:41 P): with this other dude

SoftLord (9:34:53 P): doesn’t seem like you’re doing very much to figure that out though…maybe i’m wrong

SoftLord (9:35:11 P): dont be sorry… you can see though how it might put me in an uncomfortable positoin

TheEternalMuse (9:35:35 P): I dont do anything about it because I get very nervous around this guy

TheEternalMuse (9:35:37 P): i cant breath

TheEternalMuse (9:35:41 P): i cant do anything

TheEternalMuse (9:35:45 P): i become immobile

TheEternalMuse (9:35:51 P): he does stare at m e a lot

TheEternalMuse (9:35:54 P): which I think is a good sign

TheEternalMuse (9:36:08 P): and when i do try to talk to him..i sound like a complete dumb moronic valley girl

TheEternalMuse (9:36:18 P): so until i can calm my nerves..ill make no attempts

SoftLord (9:36:45 P): ok well… you can see how i wouldn’t want to be in a holding pattern until something that may or may not ever happen actually happens

TheEternalMuse (9:38:08 P): but are you understanding me

TheEternalMuse (9:38:14 P): i’m not trying to see how things go with others

TheEternalMuse (9:38:22 P): until I achieve a resolution with the feelings i do have

SoftLord (9:42:07 P): and i guess i’m saying that i’m kind of feeling like i dont feel so okay with just hanging out until you decide if you’re really going to marry this guy, when i
guess i feel like there is definitively potential for something between us whereas there may or may not be something between you and this other fellow…

TheEternalMuse (9:43:43 P): Yeah, but feelings aren’t up for analysis…they either are or they arent…and they really are towards this guy..and have been for a while now. Even if things were not to
have worked out with this guy…it’s not like i’d be over him anytime soon. i’ve never felt this way ..ever.

SoftLord (9:44:05 P): ok so you’re saying that i shouldn’t be pursuing

TheEternalMuse (9:44:23 P): not now for sure

SoftLord (9:44:35 P): ok well then i guess that’s that.

TheEternalMuse (9:44:50 P): I thought you were clear about this

SoftLord (9:46:27 P): what i heard from you is that you think i’m awesome and i turn you on and we have a lot in common and have opened up to each other, but theres someone
that you have a thing for that you were hoping to resolve one way or the other, but you didn’t want me to back off since there still could be something here

TheEternalMuse (9:46:47 P): I didn tell u not to back off though

TheEternalMuse (9:46:57 P): i just let u do ..what u felt was appropriate

TheEternalMuse (9:47:06 P): I mean i came out and told u i was in luv with somebodu

TheEternalMuse (9:47:18 P): I didnt think i had to spell out every detail

TheEternalMuse (9:47:25 P): that would be enough for most ppl

TheEternalMuse (9:47:48 P): if somebody toldme they were in luv with somebody..i’d just back off the pursuit..and if i dug them enough..be cool being friends for the time being.

TheEternalMuse (9:47:52 P): but then again..thats me

TheEternalMuse (9:49:44 P): i thought u meant u were gonna stop talking to me for good

TheEternalMuse (9:50:20 P): hence the i like having u around very much and youre awesome

SoftLord (9:50:24 P): and you didn’t say you were in love you said you had a crush… if you can’t even tlak to someone how would you know if you’re in love

TheEternalMuse (9:50:37 P): the crush keeps getting bigger

TheEternalMuse (9:50:46 P): today I was convinced i must be in luv with the guy

SoftLord (9:51:10 P): well maybe there was a misunderstanding…but what i took from that was, whether or not yuo’re have feelings for this other guy should not preclude me from
pursuing something with you

TheEternalMuse (9:51:19 P): NO

TheEternalMuse (9:51:22 P): tha’s not what i meant at all

TheEternalMuse (9:51:26 P): i meant dont drop out of my life

SoftLord (9:51:56 P): honestly, the most painful relationship i can think of right now is "just being friends" with someone i have feelings for

TheEternalMuse (9:52:35 P): im sorry..it’s not like I led u on

SoftLord (9:52:44 P): i just can’t do the "hey you
never know, maybe someday something will
happen"

TheEternalMuse (9:52:56 P): well im not saying that
either

SoftLord (9:53:01 P): yes i know

SoftLord (9:53:08 P): but i’d be saying it to myself to
justify sticking around

TheEternalMuse (9:53:12 P): I mean by no means do not
wait …do as you please…but this is my situation right
now.

TheEternalMuse (9:53:27 P): so say that u and i never
flirted…u never would have been my friend?

SoftLord (9:53:42 P): thats not it at all

SoftLord (9:54:08 P): if we never flirted or took it to
that level i wouldve been okay with a friendship
because thats all it could have been

TheEternalMuse (9:54:40 P): I dont know what to tell
you

SoftLord (9:54:40 P): i’m friends with several
attractive girls i think are awesome but dont have
romantic feelings for

TheEternalMuse (9:55:01 P): I dig you a lot, but if i’m
gonna be a nuisance in your life th en….well the ‘then’ is
up to you.

SoftLord (9:55:19 P): but not in the way i’d like for
you to

SoftLord (9:55:43 P): er…not that wishing would make
it so, certainly…thats just crazy talk

SoftLord (9:56:39 P): its like…once that line is crossed
and that door is opened just a crack its nay
impossible to shut it again as if it was never
opened

SoftLord (9:56:40 P): at least for me

SoftLord (9:57:05 P): its different for different people,
i guess

SoftLord (9:59:46 P): i’m gonna need a bit of time to
work this out… i mean obvs you wont be out of my
life cause of work… and i honestly do hope you
find what you’re looking for with that guy

SoftLord (10:00:01 P): its my own pattern i’m trying to
break

TheEternalMuse (10:00:11 P): ok

SoftLord (10:00:47 P): i have to eat something i forgot
to have lunch again

SoftLord (10:01:00 P): bbiab possibly, might to right to
bed

SoftLord (10:01:04 P): go, rather

TheEternalMuse (10:01:42 P): alright

TheEternalMuse (10:01:44 P): bon appetit

SoftLord (10:01:48 P): quite.

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chrrybmbnyc: hey

SoftLord: yuo’re funny…like i’d want to talk to you
anymore


chrrybmbnyc: I’ve had a bad week. And I do miss you

SoftLord: good.

SoftLord: hope you treat the next nice guy who
comes along better than you treated me


chrrybmbnyc: so i finally extricated myself from ed and
the business. Had to get an order of protection, have
bruises all over my arms, and ed swallowed some pills and
is in the psych ward


SoftLord: i’m happy for you… i really can’t keep
doin this back and forth tho C… its not fair… you
get my hopes up that you might be pullin your shit
together enough to even be friends and/or
fuckbuds, either of which i would be fine with, and
then you pull the same shit you always pull


SoftLord: i used to be that much of a masochist,
but i can’t be anymore

chrrybmbnyc: it’s not the easiest situation. hope you
never find yourself there


chrrybmbnyc: oh fuck you. I didn’t do anything that
bizarre


SoftLord: you set up plans and flaked…for like the
7th time…after being all ‘i miss you and i want you
as a friend’ … its not bizarre for you, but its cruel
to me.


chrrybmbnyc: I’m sorry. I had a lot of shit to take care of.
Like keeping ed from going crazy on you. You have no idea
the type of damage he’s done to my life and the people I
care about

SoftLord: and i really dont need people being cruel
to me, no matter what the situation, past or
present might have been


SoftLord: what does ed have to do with me

chrrybmbnyc: whatever. guess you never bore the brunt of
a jealous ex-boyfriend. You don’t have to talk to me


SoftLord: remember, i had to deal with not being
your boyfriend because of him while we were
together.

chrrybmbnyc: well I paid the price

SoftLord: well i’m glad, then, that youre not in that
situation anymore


chrrybmbnyc: no, I’m free as a bird

SoftLord: it was no picnic for me either.

SoftLord: in case you hadn’t noticed.

chrrybmbnyc: I know

chrrybmbnyc: so let’s talk about the future

SoftLord: hmm.

SoftLord: here it is.

chrrybmbnyc: how’s the new job

SoftLord: in order for us to be friends, fuckbuddies,
whatever…i need to know that you’re not going to
pull the same shit you always do. cause it hurts
me. and i dont need that kind of stuff in my life.
so, when you can do that then we’ll see about ‘the
future’


SoftLord: job is great

chrrybmbnyc: ok I’ll earn your trust

SoftLord: honestly, you know i respect you and all
that, but… and i dontl ike that i’m saying this
because it means i reversed my position, and dont
think i didn’t realize it… this is your last chance…
you fuck up again, i dont want to hear from you


chrrybmbnyc: and you define the boundary so eloquently.
missed you


SoftLord: and yes, i do expect a lot from my
friends…tahts why i dont have a ton of them, and
even fewer lovers…but the ones that i do have i
treasure.

SoftLord: just dont make me regret talkin to you

chrrybmbnyc: you won’t

chrrybmbnyc: it has been interesting??

SoftLord: what has?

chrrybmbnyc: the ride

SoftLord: i was never one for rollercoasters

chrrybmbnyc: just the merry go round

SoftLord: on turbo mode perhaps

chrrybmbnyc: so what have you been up to lately

SoftLord: work…thats pretty much it…

chrrybmbnyc: that’s a pity

chrrybmbnyc: how’s your menagerie of women

SoftLord: well i seem to remember a booty call that
never happened.


chrrybmbnyc: I was talking about your Egypt and German
girls


SoftLord: *shrug* Alex has a girlfriend, Sue’s comin
back at the end of the month… everyone else can
go fuck themselves


chrrybmbnyc: that doesn’t sound good

SoftLord: nah its fine…was time to clean out the
hangers-on


chrrybmbnyc: I hear that

SoftLord: make some new friends

chrrybmbnyc: that’s always just easier

SoftLord: whatever happened to Michael…he didn’t
move along with you? i liked him, tho he was pretty
tightly wound


chrrybmbnyc: you mean ax-murderer michael

SoftLord: sure

chrrybmbnyc: he went back to new orleans to spend
some time with his son

SoftLord: ah.. he did have that NOLA vibe about
him


chrrybmbnyc: yes he did. do miss him though

SoftLord: he seemed like good people, ax murderer
aside


chrrybmbnyc: he definitely was…really did me a solid
once

SoftLord: tho apparnetly he made me nervous…i
always knock things over around people who make
me nervous


chrrybmbnyc: hold on…I have to pee

chrrybmbnyc: done peeing

SoftLord: hope everything came out alright.

chrrybmbnyc: yes, it

chrrybmbnyc: came out fine

SoftLord: good to know

chrrybmbnyc: and how’s your urethra

SoftLord: delicious

chrrybmbnyc: so what are you up to tonight

SoftLord: debating food, movie, chat, jerk off, sleep

chrrybmbnyc: in that order?

SoftLord: no, not necessarily

chrrybmbnyc: me too. adam wants to go out but I’m tired.
thinking of just kicking back and watching a movie


SoftLord: also shower might be in there

chrrybmbnyc: just showered myself

SoftLord: they’re good

chrrybmbnyc: yes, and healthy too

SoftLord: er…yes.

chrrybmbnyc: I’m pretty brain dead tonight

SoftLord: so i see

SoftLord: still, either of us at 50% is still better
than most at 100


chrrybmbnyc: very true and very sad

SoftLord: not so.

chrrybmbnyc: why not

SoftLord: most people are dumb…and we get to
take their money


chrrybmbnyc: I did neglect that point. yeah for stupid
people


SoftLord: hip hip

chrrybmbnyc: hooray

SoftLord: hoooo

SoftLord: haaaay

SoftLord: hooooo

chrrybmbnyc: did you call me a ho

SoftLord: i did not

chrrybmbnyc: well ed put a poll of cherrybomb asking who
the bigger whore was: me or christina. I took down the site
for now….but christina beat me out


SoftLord: i’msure he stacked the results

SoftLord: ho is different than whore isn’t it?

SoftLord: ho gives it away, whore makes you pay

chrrybmbnyc: isn’t ho short for whore

chrrybmbnyc: well donw

chrrybmbnyc: e

SoftLord: wasn’t evven goign for the rhyme thing

chrrybmbnyc: sometimes those things just happen

SoftLord: apparently

chrrybmbnyc: some sign of intelligence

SoftLord: as if there was any doubt

SoftLord: so are you out of pseudo.com altogether?

chrrybmbnyc: pretty much. I’ve been making too much $
producing for Playgirl. Part of my negotiation was that I get
cherrybomb.com and the brand. I don’t want to do any
more legal work for other people

SoftLord: i saw some article about playgirlTV…

SoftLord: can’t remember what it said…other than
its not all that widely available


chrrybmbnyc: yeah. Christina and I are their east coast
operation


chrrybmbnyc: but they have $

SoftLord: thought you were worried about her being
too similar to you


chrrybmbnyc: what do you mean

SoftLord: inthe manipulative
potential-for-backstabbing kind of way


SoftLord: well…last we spoke about her anyway

chrrybmbnyc: she really proved herself this week. really
was a true friend


SoftLord: k

chrrybmbnyc: but thanks

SoftLord: yeah.

chrrybmbnyc: you’re a good egg

SoftLord: thanks, i try.

SoftLord: which is why it hurts when people who
know it treat me badly.


chrrybmbnyc: ok I’m sorry….just a blanket sorry

SoftLord: heh…okay

SoftLord: i’m sorry for not letting it go

chrrybmbnyc: you’re just a man….can’t help it

SoftLord: watch it.

SoftLord: you’re still on shaky ground, you know

chrrybmbnyc: don’t worry not a man hater yet

SoftLord: wasn’t worried

SoftLord: yuo’d have every right to be, considering
most of the men in your life

chrrybmbnyc: yeah. I think it’s pretty magnanimous of me

SoftLord: *breaks out a dictionary* 馃槈

SoftLord: my new word is Quixotic

chrrybmbnyc: and…

chrrybmbnyc: meaning?

SoftLord: optimistic regardless of circumstance

chrrybmbnyc: that’s me

SoftLord: oh yeah.

SoftLord: never complains, always positive

chrrybmbnyc: do I detect a note of sarcasm

SoftLord: facetiousness

chrrybmbnyc: I know that one

SoftLord: argh…stupid virus scan slowing down my
computer


chrrybmbnyc: a hazard

SoftLord: better than not doin it i guess

SoftLord: still doin porn?

SoftLord: quix路ot路ic ( P ) Pronunciation Key
(kwk-stk) also quix路ot路i路cal (–kl)

adj.



1. Caught up in the romance of noble deeds and
the pursuit of unreachable goals; idealistic without
regard to practicality.

2. Capricious; impulsive: 鈥淎t worst his scruples
must have been quixotic, not malicious鈥 (Louis
Auchincloss).



chrrybmbnyc: NOT ME



SoftLord: i coulda told you that

chrrybmbnyc: yes, way too practical

SoftLord: mercurial is another good one

chrrybmbnyc: yes

SoftLord: mercurial



\Mer*cu"ri*al\, a. [L. mercurialis, fr. Mercurius
Mercury: cf. F. mercuriel.] 1. Having the qualities
fabled to belong to the god Mercury; swift; active;
sprightly; fickle; volatile; changeable; as, a
mercurial youth; a mercurial temperament.


chrrybmbnyc: kind of me

SoftLord: didn’t know i was supposed to be searchin
for a word to define you

chrrybmbnyc: no, but we did start this conversation how I
thought I was quixotic


SoftLord: true true

chrrybmbnyc: don’t worry. I’m not that self absorbed

SoftLord: did i say anything?

chrrybmbnyc: no

SoftLord: right. 馃檪

SoftLord: i hope steve leaves soon too.

chrrybmbnyc: yeah

SoftLord: and then everyone i’m relatively fond of
will be gone


chrrybmbnyc: won’t that be grand

SoftLord: and it’ll just be adam running the whole
thing


chrrybmbnyc: I’m going to merge the pseudo assets with
another company. been working on it for a while. Now
everyone is out of my way. yippe

SoftLord: that url has so many visitors and so little
content of use to anyone


chrrybmbnyc: yeah. but they make $

chrrybmbnyc: we’re going to start creating new content.
Relauch streetsound, globalhouse etc


SoftLord: thougt you were leaving

SoftLord: and the brand you were taking was
cherrybomb


chrrybmbnyc: yes. but I have to set pseudo up so we’re
making $ off the investment


SoftLord: whats your percentage?

chrrybmbnyc: 50%

chrrybmbnyc: and all the IP assets

SoftLord: aj

SoftLord: ah

chrrybmbnyc: the ball is in my court

chrrybmbnyc: or should I say "balls"

SoftLord: you didn’t have balls last i checked

chrrybmbnyc: but I have the biggest balls of them all

SoftLord: so technically you could package it all up
and sell the other 50% to competent people with a
passion for it who aren’t nutjobs and have business
sense, make them prominently feature cherrybomb,
and totally ignore it and let the money roll in

chrrybmbnyc: you got it. like an IQ test

SoftLord: i just…not that its any of my business or
my call or anything… but it didn’t seem like you
were at all happy or satisfied doing the day-to-day
of running an internet company…and honestly you
weren’t that good at it (the internet side of it)…so
i wouldn’t want you to go back to it.


chrrybmbnyc: not good at it???

SoftLord: good at partnerships and making
deals…but that site is really bad… the design is
awful and not useful, you dont have any room for
standard banners on the front page, 75% of your
content links were broken at any one time

chrrybmbnyc: fake it till you make it

SoftLord: *Shrug*

SoftLord: hence, not so good at the internet side.

SoftLord: when people hit broken links too often
they get pissed off and they dont come back.

chrrybmbnyc: internet is expensive. need the
partnerships etc. before you can spend $ on content etc.


chrrybmbnyc: talk to adam. that’s his thing

SoftLord: i dont care, really…i’m just saying

chrrybmbnyc: uh huh

SoftLord: and i have spoken to adam about my
suggested redesign, weeks ago


chrrybmbnyc: good boy

SoftLord: mostly because he’s been workin with us
@sony a bunch lately and i want it to be worth our
time


SoftLord: watch it.

chrrybmbnyc: bark for me

SoftLord: it takes me two clicks to put you on block
list for good, and i dont have to answer my phone.


chrrybmbnyc: but you’d miss me

SoftLord: when was the last time i IMed you first,
Carlin?

chrrybmbnyc: ooohhh

SoftLord: i miss talking with you sometimes, but i
also wont take nearly as much shit as even i did 6
months ago.


chrrybmbnyc: a new man

SoftLord: and you’re on thin ice as it is 馃槢

SoftLord: yes…perhaps i have you to thank for that
in a roundabout way


chrrybmbnyc: yes you do

SoftLord: so there you have it.

chrrybmbnyc: you don’t have to thank me

SoftLord: wasn’t plannin on it

chrrybmbnyc: I know you love me

SoftLord: that remains to be seen

chrrybmbnyc: you are too much fun

SoftLord: why’s that

chrrybmbnyc: just very stimulating

SoftLord: can i ask you something honestly?

chrrybmbnyc: yes you may

SoftLord: sometimes i get the feeling that you
weasel back into my relatively good graces just to
prove that you can, and then you get
bored.
..anything to that?

chrrybmbnyc: not at all

SoftLord: okay…well i just thought you should be
aware that i feel that way sometimes.


chrrybmbnyc: no, just been trying to get control of my life
for the last 3 years. everyone knew I was over a barrel
because I knew ed would try to fuck the business. had to
wait

SoftLord: i see

SoftLord: and where are you now?

chrrybmbnyc: free, in control, producing, independent, and
loving it


SoftLord: happy for you

SoftLord: must be an odd feeling

chrrybmbnyc: yes, like being an adult again. sometimes I
hate being a woman.


chrrybmbnyc: hate that men can try to intimidate you
physically and business is unfair….have to always watch
your back


SoftLord: being a woman isn’t it…its being a
beautiful and smart woman thats the kicker

SoftLord: bunch of insecure men in the world who
can’t take the combo


chrrybmbnyc: yes, I can’t tell you how much of that
bullshit I"m confronting. Men hate successful/creative
women


SoftLord: and it wasn’t meant as a compliment but
as a statement of fact.


chrrybmbnyc: i know

SoftLord: dont say men

SoftLord: its not all men.

SoftLord: its men you deal with

chrrybmbnyc: men in their 40’s

SoftLord: k…wouldn’t know much about them

SoftLord: oh

SoftLord: wish me a happy birthday

chrrybmbnyc: Happy Birthday.

chrrybmbnyc: knew there was a reason I IMed you

SoftLord: oh is that why

SoftLord: i doubt that.

SoftLord: why did you IM me?

chrrybmbnyc: fate?

SoftLord: you can give me a real answer, i wont
laugh at you.


chrrybmbnyc: just wanted to reconnect now that I’m
through the woods


SoftLord: for what purpos

SoftLord: e

SoftLord: i won’t hold you to it

SoftLord: not that i could anyway

chrrybmbnyc: to enjoy you

SoftLord: a multilayered turn of phrase

chrrybmbnyc: like that don’t you

SoftLord: it did make me take notice

chrrybmbnyc: I aim to please

SoftLord: you seem like you do a decent job, from
my limited experience


chrrybmbnyc: just decent???

SoftLord: you’re so easy

chrrybmbnyc: are you saying I’m a "whore"

SoftLord: no, i’m saying you’re easily riled

chrrybmbnyc: true dat

SoftLord: and i dont remember having any
complaints except that we only did it that one night
and never got to expand the repertoire.


chrrybmbnyc: I know

SoftLord: and you made me break several of my
rules


chrrybmbnyc: I can be crafty

SoftLord: amongst other things

chrrybmbnyc: yes

chrrybmbnyc: so I think I’m going to crash for a few hours.
be back later
=-O

SoftLord: you ARE a tease.

SoftLord: do you mean later or do you mean
tomorrow, honestly.\


SoftLord:

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Diddlms: hi

SoftLord: heya

Diddlms: wanna die

Diddlms: heart break

SoftLord: you’ll geto ver it

Diddlms: doesnt feel like it

SoftLord: you’re not breaking up with her

Diddlms: i know

Diddlms: but it hurts

SoftLord: you’ll see her again… maybe its good to
give yourself some distance so you dont lose
yourself in her


Diddlms: i already have

Diddlms: and she loves me too

SoftLord: ?

Diddlms: i mean

Diddlms: my feelings

Diddlms: im so in love with her

SoftLord: yeah…maybe you need some distance,
so you can be comfortable being apart


Diddlms: yeah i know

SoftLord: theres love and then theres obsession
you know


Diddlms: but ive had that for so long jus sucks haveing
her back behind the computer screen

SoftLord: i know, but as i said… you want to be
able to be apart…otherwise you have a
codependent relationship and those never work out
well


Diddlms: yeah i know

Diddlms: your really right bout that one

SoftLord: of course i am 馃槢

SoftLord: i speak frome experience

Diddlms: your jeremy your always right

SoftLord: there was a point where i’d do anything to keep from being apart from a girlfriend… and that doesn’t lead to anything good

Diddlms: 馃榾

SoftLord: not always… i just tend to be pretty spot on about human nature

SoftLord: and you’re predictable

SoftLord: not in a bad way

Diddlms: how so?

SoftLord: there are certain ways you behave and certain thingis you want and things you do to try to attain them

Diddlms: who me?

Diddlms: so how is that

Diddlms: im curious

SoftLord: only if you wont get defensive, since i’m not attacking you

Diddlms: babe its ok

SoftLord: you always want attention however you can get it… whether its healthy for you or not… to make up for being abandoned by your dad
(this being my theory)… especially from men… which is why you’re such a tease… you need to have the power over men… you need people to
think you’re special, but you dont think you’re special enough on your own (which you are) so you use your sex appeal and flirting to have people
want to hang around you… i think on some leve you know that thats not really genuine affection, which you could have…but you enjoy the
attention and power still… i think you know that until you take a look at some of the things causing this you’re not gonna be able to have a real
connection with people, so when you find someone you do like you become very desperate to use any of your existing tools to keep them around…
i dont think you’ve really had the rolemodels for a healthy interaction to base your behaviors on (neither have I)…


SoftLord: so you get obsessive and codependent (i do too sometimes) because you really want to be loved for something other than what you put
out there, but you dont really feel like you know how to put something elsee out there, or that anyone deserves to know ‘the real you’ … because
they might not like what they see, and you know they’ll ‘love’ you if you flirt and give them attention like that

Diddlms: ding ding ding

SoftLord: so you become kinda an energy-parasite, needing false attention so much

Diddlms: true

Diddlms: true ture

Diddlms: but

Diddlms: i do like attention

Diddlms: and thats because it feels good to be important

Diddlms: but

SoftLord: yeah but its not like ‘real’ importance…dont know if i’m being clear

Diddlms: i really like this girl… and honestly im willing to be real with her…even if it means she may hurt me

SoftLord: having someone pay attention to you because you spend 10 minutes on how much you love sucking cock isn’t ‘real’ attention

Diddlms: but its worth it

SoftLord: yes but you were saying similar things with Dan

Diddlms: dan is an idiot

SoftLord: and i dont know, do you think you have the ‘tools’ to be real with her?…the behavior patterns… thats not a slight against you, just in my
experience it looks like its very difficult for you and probably very frustrating


Diddlms: well…so far… its been really nice

Diddlms: shes really made me see things i didnt know aobut myself

SoftLord: but you see how you’ve become obsessive

SoftLord: i’m glad she has

Diddlms: that i dont wanna leave her

Diddlms: it that bad<<?

SoftLord: but its like… i do the same thing… go from 0 to 160…

Diddlms: i mean i know

SoftLord: no turning back… its like… desperation, you know?

Diddlms: space is good

Diddlms: yeah

Diddlms: i know space is good

SoftLord: cause you so want it to work… but you dont really know how

Diddlms: but i jus gonna miss her

SoftLord: its like someone who can’t swim jumping off the deep end…you want to do a double pike with a twist and you think you should but you
end up bellyflopping and then flailing around


SoftLord: with the best intentions

Diddlms: so what do u suggest?

SoftLord: well…i think the space is a good thing… but overall i think for your sake its time you start addressing some of these underlying issues
with an impartial third party


Diddlms: cant afford that not at the moment atleast

SoftLord: its something to think about working toward, though… a job with medical benefits

Diddlms: yeah well i dont wanna do it here

Diddlms: i wanna move out here

SoftLord: tis the birthplace of therapy

Diddlms: hehe

Diddlms: your really something

SoftLord: its just… its time, ya know?

Diddlms: but i thought it was vienna

SoftLord: how so

Diddlms: freud

SoftLord: no i meant how so to "your really
something"


SoftLord: you’re right…vienna

Diddlms: you just matured so much

SoftLord: ahh…

SoftLord: i still have a bit to go

Diddlms: i was talking bout u in the bath with dani sat
night


SoftLord: thats random

Diddlms: how special u are

SoftLord: did you mention how cute i am? 馃槈

Diddlms: hehehe

Diddlms: we we were discussing people

Diddlms: and personality brought u to mind

SoftLord: i c

Diddlms: not shallow shit

Diddlms: ya know

SoftLord: i realize

SoftLord: i was teasin

Diddlms: hehe yeah

SoftLord: i’m just … so used to the "well he’s a
really great guy" that implies "shame he’s fat and
ugly"…at least in my brain

Diddlms: no

SoftLord: not sayin that thats how you meant it

SoftLord: whatever…thats my stuff

Diddlms: well ur not

SoftLord: k 馃檪

SoftLord: hey i believe it more now than i did in the
past


Diddlms: well good cause its true

SoftLord: but as i said, thats my stuff

SoftLord: so ther you go…nothing you havent
heard before, prolly from me…or don’t know…
馃檪

SoftLord: but i love ya anyway

Diddlms: me too

Diddlms: love me too

Diddlms: 馃槢

Diddlms: na

Diddlms: love u too

SoftLord: no comment on that one.

SoftLord: oh so here’s some happy news

SoftLord: haras and barney are getting hitched

Diddlms: no way

Diddlms: thats fantastic

SoftLord: yeah

SoftLord: good for them

Diddlms: yeah thats really nice

SoftLord: well done

SoftLord: a year ago you woulda made some crack
about how even ugly people can find love


Diddlms: yeah i know but i thats really mean and they
love each other and that sucks to be nasty like that


SoftLord: right

SoftLord: thats why i said well done

Diddlms: well honey i have to get some sleep early flight

SoftLord: oh yay you’re home tomorrow

Diddlms: i know…yay i miss u

SoftLord: do you want to plan something for
thursday?

Diddlms: yes def

Diddlms: like what sleep over sort of stuff?

SoftLord: sure

Diddlms: he he cool

SoftLord: as long as i dont have to go clubbing

Diddlms: that would be great

Diddlms: well no more pyramid so i dont see how we
could


SoftLord: haven’t been clubbin in months, dont miss
it, not planning to go anytime soon.

Diddlms: i miss pyramid only go to down time cause im
bored


Diddlms: i dont forsee any major plans but how bout
this..how bout we leave thursday pending on account my
family might get annoyed athat i been home like two days
and i didnt settle in and take care of shit


Diddlms: so sound ok

Diddlms: so i dont fuck u over

Diddlms: cause i dont want thatt

SoftLord: would you rather make it a definite on
friday?


SoftLord: i just don’t want you to tell me on
thursday at 5:45 that you’re not gonna be able to
make it


Diddlms: i know i dont want that either

Diddlms: how bout we discuss tomorrow then

Diddlms: ?

SoftLord: theres a dream theater show on
saturday…if i’dve known you were comin back i
would have gotten you a ticket…i only have one
馃檨

Diddlms: aw well u goin alone?

SoftLord: yea

Diddlms: sound fun

SoftLord: i know you hate live music 馃槢

SoftLord: they’re gonna be on for 3 hours

Diddlms: ok kiddo i need some rest chat with u
tomorrow?


SoftLord: no opening act

SoftLord: i cant’ wait

Diddlms: love u

SoftLord: u2…go sleep

Diddlms: ill try

SoftLord: or whatever it is you do

Diddlms: night honey

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chrrybmbnyc: hell0o
hyperthetical: hey
chrrybmbnyc: i love it when the city is empt
chrrybmbnyc: empty
hyperthetical: yes
hyperthetical: so whats the deal with you and ed?
chrrybmbnyc: well we used to live together and now we don’t. we’re business partners. and sometimes ed chills at my house for the weekend
hyperthetical: that IM convo was not exactly heartwarming 馃槢
hyperthetical: plus i wanted to see kill bill wif ya :/
chrrybmbnyc: it was ok. maybe i wasn’t in the mood. i was kind of bored by the end
hyperthetical: wasn’t the point of the statement
chrrybmbnyc: well if it’s any consolation technically i’m still married
hyperthetical: thats a different thing…its not like yuo’re particularly social with that one
hyperthetical: and thats just waiting on legal proceedings, as you said
chrrybmbnyc: this is a sore issue for you
hyperthetical: yeah… i dunno… i just dont like feeling like i’m being kept in the dark or dicked around… you know my thing with honesty… i thought i’d bring it up with you directly…especially since you didn’t hang out with me all weekend cause you had patent stuff to do and then ended up hangin out all weekend with stuff that i wanted to do wif ya
chrrybmbnyc: jeremy you need to know that I’m a great friend, lover, buddy whatever but a horrible girlfriend. my time is not my own and my focus is all business. i like to just spend time with people i like – not define things. better for an aries
hyperthetical:
chrrybmbnyc: if you have a question just ask me
hyperthetical: trying to phrase the thought succinctly
chrrybmbnyc: ok
hyperthetical: i’m not asking you to put me ahead of your work… i admire your dedication to your company, i do… i just think that maybe i should factor in a little above ex-boys and dinners with slimy lawyers… you’ve become very important to me, and i think i deserve similar consideration… you’re not likely to come across someone like me anytime soon… i dont mean that to sound arrogant, i’m just saying… its not a jealousy thing, you can spend time with whoever you want, i trust you… its just a matter of what he said, and how we dont seem to ever have time to really connect… as i said, you’re someone special to me and i’d like to really do somethin here…
hyperthetical: guess that wasn’t as succinct as i was going for
chrrybmbnyc: like the arrogance. why do you think i spend as much time with you as i do. now it’s going to sound arrogant on my part but there are so many people in my life that i have to make time for and no matter what someone’s pissed at me. just trying to get my business to the next level so I can take a breath
hyperthetical: i dont think i’m askin for too much… i just wanna come in third, after work and family (in whichever order you’d like)… a lot of people would resent the dedication you have to your job… i understand that there are a lot of demands on your time… prioritize :-P… i’m not askin for your business time… just some of your social time and maybe a tiny piece of your heart…. so when you tell me i shouldn’t go to Show because I’d hate it there, you miss the point… the point is i get to spend time with you… the venue is irrelivant… i can make my own fun wherever i may be… the point is bein together… so tell me to be patient and i’ll have more of your attention and I will… but i just want to feel like i’m special to you like you’re special to me, and thinks like ed’s IM (however he meant it) does not do that.
hyperthetical: thinGs
chrrybmbnyc: got your point. well that YRB thing is tomorrow night. it’s going to be raining like crazy but what the hell
hyperthetical: true…
hyperthetical: however
hyperthetical: i can’t go :/
hyperthetical: cause my gig is tomorrow
hyperthetical: so yeah… just needed to say that… feel free to respond as you see fit.. was buggin me most of the weekend
chrrybmbnyc: that’s right. perfect. what time does your thing start???
hyperthetical: 9
chrrybmbnyc: YRB starts @ 7:00 so that works
hyperthetical: cool
hyperthetical: i’m cold
chrrybmbnyc: too much air conditioning
hyperthetical: not sure… nobody else seems to be as cold as i am
hyperthetical: maybe i’m dying
chrrybmbnyc: hope you’re ‘not getting sick
chrrybmbnyc: you see a bright light when you’re dying
hyperthetical: my lights are off, so i guess thats not it
chrrybmbnyc: ha ha
hyperthetical: tho that might be why i’m cold
hyperthetical: and it all comes full circle
chrrybmbnyc: maybe it’s the black t-shirt with a clever saying
hyperthetical: possibly
chrrybmbnyc: you’re what
hyperthetical: possibly its the black t-shirt thing
hyperthetical: but i think i’d be used to it by now 馃槢
chrrybmbnyc: one would hope
hyperthetical: yaes
hyperthetical: whatchaupta?
hyperthetical: i’ve been in a wacky mood all weekend… didn’t mean to take it all out on you… might head home a little early today

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chrrybmbnyc: are you home already



Auto response from chrrybmbnyc: Ah love, thy
name is nap. Back soon, don’t miss me too much!




chrrybmbnyc: pretty clever

SoftLord: come baaack



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chrrybmbnyc: here

SoftLord: yay

chrrybmbnyc: how was your nap?

SoftLord: better than nothing

SoftLord: i can think now, mostly

chrrybmbnyc: you better rest up

SoftLord: is that a threat?

chrrybmbnyc: if you still want to play

chrrybmbnyc: tomorrow

SoftLord: of course

chrrybmbnyc: how are you going to entertain me?

SoftLord: its a secret

chrrybmbnyc: ooohhh

chrrybmbnyc: love secrets

chrrybmbnyc: give me a hint

SoftLord: i definitely want you to see the place…

SoftLord: i feel like i should have a grand scheme
now

chrrybmbnyc: not at all

chrrybmbnyc: just playing with you

chrrybmbnyc: but i will crash your pad

SoftLord: i know

chrrybmbnyc: should i bring anything

chrrybmbnyc: ?

SoftLord: whipped cream and chocolate syrup

SoftLord: we can make sundaes! 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: took the wind out of my witty retort

SoftLord: oops

SoftLord: sorry

SoftLord: lets try it again

chrrybmbnyc: only sorry for you

SoftLord: whipped cream and chocolate syrup

chrrybmbnyc: jeremy, chocolate syrup, whipped cream,
adn a cherry on top. yummy


SoftLord: whos cherry?

chrrybmbnyc: fuck you

SoftLord: not who’s cherry

SoftLord: WHOSE cherry

chrrybmbnyc: nice come back

SoftLord: well it is what i meant

chrrybmbnyc: steve thinks that i shouldn’t talk to you

SoftLord: reallly…why’s that

chrrybmbnyc: he says that i’m bad news and that you’re
too young and nice – guess i’ll corrupt you

SoftLord: people keep saying that about you

chrrybmbnyc: who

SoftLord: that you’re too much for me to handle

chrrybmbnyc: jackie? dan?

SoftLord: no, jackie adores you

chrrybmbnyc: and i said who not what

chrrybmbnyc: that’s because i gave her props for the
tongue ring


SoftLord: dan, steve, ed…

chrrybmbnyc: dan is just jealous

SoftLord: with good reasonj

SoftLord: the other two are not exactly impartial

SoftLord: but every time i get in a relationship
(not that thats a ton of times) … people always
say that… "i duno dude… you’re so nice… be
careful with that one"

SoftLord: its funny

SoftLord: like i’m a delicate flower…

chrrybmbnyc: he came up to me that night while we
were dancing – and said that "young jeremy needs to be
broken in and you’re just the woman to do it"


chrrybmbnyc: dan

SoftLord: nice

SoftLord: i love how everyone butts in to our
personal life…heh


chrrybmbnyc: well isn’t that why you brought me
there???


SoftLord: no, i brought you there cause i wanted
your company…

SoftLord: well.. and to show you off a bit 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: i know

SoftLord: i’ll have you know, i got shit from alex
for bringing you 馃槢


chrrybmbnyc: figured – know her type

SoftLord: well…i mean

SoftLord: for not bringing her

chrrybmbnyc: i got it

SoftLord: heheh

SoftLord: yeah… you do know her type

SoftLord: but she’s good people

SoftLord: was thinkin we should get drinks with
her an steve


SoftLord: at some point

chrrybmbnyc: great people – 27 and broke it off with the
husband potential. In extreme need for male attention all
the time. loves to tease male friends. wants to be
wanted.


chrrybmbnyc: that would be fun

SoftLord: very self-involved, but not in like an
arrogant way… its just kinda all about her,
although other people are important to her… a
princess


SoftLord: but she’s also sweet and a good listener
and fun and funny

chrrybmbnyc: it’s not about narcisissm. it’s about
craving attention. should be in the spotlight


SoftLord: ja.. like… when she sees someone with
cool shoes or whatever her immediate response is
"i hate you where did you get those?"


SoftLord: heheh… but as i said…she’s fun 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: caddy fun

SoftLord: true

chrrybmbnyc: quality entertainment

SoftLord: so i was thinking tomorrow just like…
chinese and DVDs… maybe hang out up on the
roof and eat, depending on the weather

chrrybmbnyc: fun

SoftLord: i duno… should i still be trying to
impress you with going out to places and stuff?
i’m all for skippin right to the good stuff…. but
you know, dont think that i’m bein lazy
馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: having someone over to your house is
anything but lazy. i go out all the time. i get so sick of it.
sick of the food. sick of the people. plus i was supposed
to be in Boston tomorrow at Harvard. On a panel on IP
law compliments of Shelly. and guess…rooms for the
weekend. no fucking way.


SoftLord: k… i’m just more of a fan of quiet nights
at home with someone special than a whole
thing… but i know for a lot of people that comes
later in a relationship… i’m glad that it sounds
good to you too
馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: you’re such a cheese ball. :-*

SoftLord: *blush* i know i know… and i think too
much


SoftLord: okay i’m stoppin now…

chrrybmbnyc: what do you think of Interpol?

SoftLord: so yeah… some food, i got Chicago,
About A Boy and Three Kings from NetFlix, will
save ’em for us… have a ton of other stuff… and
i’m sure we’ll find ways to entertain ourselves


SoftLord: they’re okay for a Joy Division cover
band


chrrybmbnyc: i love it when you rip music

chrrybmbnyc: what’s About a Boy??

SoftLord: Hugh Grant romantic comedy thing

SoftLord: based on a book by the guy who wrote
High Fidelity


chrrybmbnyc: oh yeah

SoftLord: Based on Nick Hornby’s popular British
novel, About A Boy is a comedy-drama starring
Hugh Grant as Will, a rich, child-free and
irresponsible Londoner in his thirties who, in
search of available women, invents an imaginary
son and starts attending single parent meetings.
As a result of one of his liaisons, he meets
Marcus, an odd 12-year-old boy with problems at
school. Gradually, Will and Marcus become friends,
and as Will teaches Marcus how to be a cool kid,
Marcus helps Will to finally grow up.

SoftLord: universals summary

chrrybmbnyc: thought you had dial up

SoftLord: newp…DSL

SoftLord: por quoi

chrrybmbnyc: check it out

chrrybmbnyc: i thought you were complaining once
about the juice or lack thereof


chrrybmbnyc: what are you doing???

SoftLord: my DSL sucks

chrrybmbnyc: right

SoftLord: but yea…its there

SoftLord: thats why file xfers are pretty quick
between us


chrrybmbnyc: quick fix…

SoftLord: ..?

chrrybmbnyc: just whirling off

SoftLord: wheee

SoftLord: come back come back! 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: sorry….adam wanted to check his
updates on pseudo


SoftLord: just cause you whirled off…nevermind

SoftLord: heh

chrrybmbnyc: exactly…he say a break

chrrybmbnyc: Toby lives

chrrybmbnyc: despite the pills

SoftLord: just gonna have to try harder last time

SoftLord: maybe leave some syringes lyin around

chrrybmbnyc: what about a needle and thread??

SoftLord: oooh

SoftLord: i like how you think

chrrybmbnyc: that’s what i told steve. i told him that
you liked my insanity.

SoftLord: how about thumbtacks

chrrybmbnyc: even better and less work

SoftLord: ah…so we’ve been found out, have we

chrrybmbnyc: just a little. just as friends

SoftLord: well we are friends

SoftLord: just you know… friends who make
out…and…. stuff


chrrybmbnyc: correctamundo

chrrybmbnyc: i don’t think i like rancid at all

SoftLord: i’m not a punk fan

SoftLord: they havea couple of good tracks, tho

chrrybmbnyc: butt licker

SoftLord: guilty as charge— what?

SoftLord: O:-)

chrrybmbnyc: knew you were a dirty boy

SoftLord: of course 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: i think it’s the youth thing – why people
think you’re nice.

SoftLord: i guess… maybe they think of
themselves at my age… but i’ve always been
‘advanced’


chrrybmbnyc: it’s the baby face

SoftLord: i mean…i am nice… but i’m not like….
as breakable as people think

SoftLord: not that you’d be trying to break me
anyway


chrrybmbnyc: no, just twist you up

chrrybmbnyc: pleasureably

SoftLord: i look forward to your efforts

SoftLord: still not gonna get me on drugs tho 馃槢

chrrybmbnyc: i never share my drugs with anyone

chrrybmbnyc: don’t worry

SoftLord: i wasn’t

chrrybmbnyc: good to have someone sober around me

SoftLord: *shrug* everything in moderation, i
say… dowhutchawant


chrrybmbnyc: i say work hard play hard

SoftLord: hard is good

chrrybmbnyc: wet is good too

SoftLord: *smile* sounds delicious

chrrybmbnyc: peachy

SoftLord: peach? i could eat a peach for hours

chrrybmbnyc: hhhmmm

SoftLord: Nick Cage, Face/Off

chrrybmbnyc: i didn’t see that. should have known it
was a movie rip off


SoftLord: hey i have plenty of clever innuendo of
my very own

chrrybmbnyc: i’ve heard a few so far

SoftLord: you just dont set ’em up as often as i
do


SoftLord: my dsl sucks

chrrybmbnyc: dsl sucks in general

chrrybmbnyc: hold on

SoftLord: when they give me more money i’m
gonna get digital cable


SoftLord: holding on…

SoftLord: can i let go now? i’m starting to
chafe….

chrrybmbnyc: yes i’m back

SoftLord: adam saw his puhsoodo updates/

chrrybmbnyc: yes…now he’s smoking

chrrybmbnyc: i hate cigarettes

SoftLord: yeah

SoftLord: alex took up smoking again since she
started this job… she’d quit…i feel bad a little


chrrybmbnyc: i hate a good question

SoftLord: hate? or have

chrrybmbnyc: if i was a smoker…would you walk the
other way


SoftLord: is that a ‘would you still like me if…’
question?


SoftLord: i’d prolly just wear you down until you
quit


chrrybmbnyc: that and would you entertain the
opportunity despite your distaste

SoftLord: as i said

SoftLord: i hate kissing people who smoke…they
taste like ash


chrrybmbnyc: my ex smoked and i hated it. i would
have to say that if someone smoked i probably wouldn’t
entertain anything


chrrybmbnyc: yuck

SoftLord: and i like kissing you, so

chrrybmbnyc: hhhmmm

SoftLord: and dancin…

SoftLord: or… "dancin"

SoftLord: ;")

SoftLord: 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: i love to watch you dance, tony

SoftLord: ayyyy

SoftLord: oops…i’m mixin my travoltas

chrrybmbnyc: thought i’d jump on the bandwagon

SoftLord: you can jump on whatever you’d like to
babe


chrrybmbnyc: you know how i get

SoftLord: do i

chrrybmbnyc: don’t play coy

SoftLord: so yer sayin i get you all worked up….
O:-)

chrrybmbnyc: make me do bad things like rub myself all
over you

SoftLord: well you make me do bad things like bite
your neck and pull your hair… and i think you
could probably tell that i was enjoying myself


chrrybmbnyc: i do try to be good

SoftLord: do i need to explain to you the
difference between good and proficient?


chrrybmbnyc: what about good and proficient?

SoftLord: the difference between the two

chrrybmbnyc: explain

SoftLord: being good…and being good at it

chrrybmbnyc: talent?

SoftLord: moving on…

SoftLord: i think thats a thing that works verbally

chrrybmbnyc: i think you need to show me what you
mean


SoftLord: i think so too

chrrybmbnyc: so i think i’m going to crash in bed and
watch some mindless tv…wish you could join
me….tomorrow


SoftLord: so there are two parts of that evening
that stand out


SoftLord: you’re halfway through a show, you
might as well stay til 10


chrrybmbnyc: negotiating?

SoftLord: i’m just sayin… youd be coming in in the
middle


chrrybmbnyc: you know how i hate that

SoftLord: right

chrrybmbnyc: do you like jujyfruit?

SoftLord: sure

SoftLord: i used to be a milk duds at the movies
guy


chrrybmbnyc: i hate milk duds

chrrybmbnyc: i don’t know why

SoftLord: they changed the recipie

chrrybmbnyc: so now what do you choose

SoftLord: depends… bunchacrunch usually

chrrybmbnyc: what’s that

SoftLord: its like… little pieces of nestle crunch

chrrybmbnyc: more of a sour patch person myself

SoftLord: hmmm

SoftLord: oh cause you like dark chocolate

chrrybmbnyc: good memory

SoftLord: for the important stuff

chrrybmbnyc: ha ha

SoftLord: which was that chocolatier that you
liked so much… the name has slipped my mind

chrrybmbnyc: i can’t remember either

SoftLord: dammit

chrrybmbnyc: something with a B

SoftLord: the only B ones yahoo lists are
bari&gail, bendicks, bernard c, betsy ann, black
hound, bodega, bridgewater, bromilow, brownes,
buchanan and butlers

chrrybmbnyc: nothing sounds familiar

chrrybmbnyc: too tired

SoftLord: heh

SoftLord: so…as i was saying

chrrybmbnyc: and

SoftLord: there are two moments that stand out
from that evenin


chrrybmbnyc: yes….

SoftLord: 1) being pushed up against a wall and
kissed

chrrybmbnyc: and

SoftLord: and 2) on our walk back, on third and
mercer while we were waitin for adam, wrappin
my arms around you from behind


SoftLord: for a squeeze

chrrybmbnyc: that was fun

SoftLord: which

chrrybmbnyc: both

SoftLord: 馃檪

SoftLord: yaes

chrrybmbnyc: i like being the aggressor and…

SoftLord: and…

chrrybmbnyc: pleasant suprises

SoftLord: well phreased

SoftLord: phrased

chrrybmbnyc: thank you

SoftLord: godiva fan?

chrrybmbnyc: yes i am

SoftLord: iinteresting

chrrybmbnyc: uh huh

SoftLord: fading fast, i see

chrrybmbnyc: sorry…i just hit a wall

chrrybmbnyc: but very into you

SoftLord: no no… you had to deal with me all
day, its only fair


chrrybmbnyc: i need a back rub

SoftLord: aww… wish i was there to give you
one… i give good rubs… tomorrow

chrrybmbnyc: promise?

SoftLord: absolutely

chrrybmbnyc: you’re the best

SoftLord: i dunno about that…. top 5,
definitely…..

SoftLord: 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: have a good night, jeremy. till tomorrow
馃檪

SoftLord: good night, sweetness *kiss onna
forehead* sleep well


chrrybmbnyc: you too

SoftLord: you’re more than welcome to crash
tomorrow BTW, regardless of how the evening is
spent


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SoftLord: *staples you to AIM*

chrrybmbnyc: sounds painful

SoftLord: but only on the weekends

chrrybmbnyc: i guess i can take it

SoftLord: gotta be gentle the first time

chrrybmbnyc: yeah right

SoftLord: hmph

SoftLord: i’ve only been with one virgin, and i was
plenty gentle

chrrybmbnyc: what’s hmph

chrrybmbnyc: sorry i’m not a virgin

SoftLord: no need to apologize

chrrybmbnyc: not apologizing – just being sarcastic

SoftLord: so was i…hehe

chrrybmbnyc: me a virgin – good one

SoftLord: how old were you?

chrrybmbnyc: bold question

chrrybmbnyc: 16

SoftLord: this is not going to turn into a "how
many sexual partners have you had"


SoftLord: converstaion

SoftLord: *doesn’t care*..heh

chrrybmbnyc: you’re the one steering

SoftLord: i was just curious

chrrybmbnyc: seems like

SoftLord: there was no follow-up

chrrybmbnyc: suit yourself

SoftLord: i miss swing revival

SoftLord: always do

chrrybmbnyc: actually i never did keep a tally

chrrybmbnyc: not about how many

SoftLord: *shrug* not my business, really

SoftLord: i’m no holden

chrrybmbnyc: holden who

SoftLord: holden from chasing amy

chrrybmbnyc: is he from dawson’s creek

SoftLord: pbbt… howd you know i like dawsons
creek


chrrybmbnyc: oh yes now i get the reference

chrrybmbnyc: your age

SoftLord: hehe

SoftLord: guilty pleasure

SoftLord: since 90210 went off the air

chrrybmbnyc: so gen y

SoftLord: well i AM

SoftLord: actually

SoftLord: i’m like… on the border between X and
Y

chrrybmbnyc: yes you are

SoftLord: generationally

chrrybmbnyc: your definitely a y though

SoftLord: i dunno… i was also listening to
whitesnake at work today

SoftLord: and i own ridiculous amounts of Muppet
Show memorabilia


chrrybmbnyc: really – miss piggy

SoftLord: i’m partial to Dr. Teeth… he’s the man

SoftLord: i have the jim henson "Think Different"

poster up on my wall in my room

chrrybmbnyc: loved the show when blondie did the
muppets


SoftLord: and all the released episodes on VHS,
and a kermit doll, and some of the action figures
at work


SoftLord: muppets rock…cause they’re totally
multi-layered and clever

chrrybmbnyc: isn’t his son starting something new

SoftLord: his son runs henson inc… they just
bought back all the shares of their company from
this german comp that had bought them out


chrrybmbnyc: oohhh interesting

chrrybmbnyc: where are we going again wednesday
night

SoftLord: release party for Party Monster

SoftLord: @Plaid

chrrybmbnyc: thanks.

SoftLord: by invite only

SoftLord: i had to give the name of my +1 when i
RSVPed


chrrybmbnyc: of course

SoftLord: impressed yet? *vomit*

chrrybmbnyc: so impressed i almost want to blow you

SoftLord: iiinteresting

chrrybmbnyc: right

SoftLord: lol

SoftLord: i was gonna say.. if thats all it
takes…yeesh

chrrybmbnyc: lol right back

chrrybmbnyc: fuck you

chrrybmbnyc: ass

SoftLord: i was GONNA say but i didn’t

SoftLord: sensitive tonight arent we 馃槢

chrrybmbnyc: i can take it – just like fucking with you

SoftLord: apparently 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: O:-)

SoftLord: ALMOST a better sentence…hehe

SoftLord: hey, want a preview of the new
Sevendust record?


chrrybmbnyc: yes yes yes

SoftLord:

http://www.konkretejungle.com/7dust/ecard.html

SoftLord: before even the eTeam hears it

SoftLord: #1 most added at active rock and alt.
rock this week 馃檪


chrrybmbnyc: thank you

SoftLord: NOW have we gotten past the "almost"
thing? 馃槈


chrrybmbnyc: almost what???

SoftLord: almost want to blow me

chrrybmbnyc: guess you’ll have to work on that

SoftLord: lol

chrrybmbnyc: lol – you’re simple answer to everything

SoftLord: tis better to give than receive anyway

chrrybmbnyc: good job

SoftLord: thanks

chrrybmbnyc: =-O

SoftLord: *shrug* i dunno.. giving head is such a
‘chore’ for a lot of people that it tends to not be
worth it to me… not that i’ve had tons of
experience… but you know… what gets me off is
when people WANT to be doing something,
whether its head or anything else… not the
actual act

chrrybmbnyc: absolutely – it’s about passion

SoftLord: right

chrrybmbnyc: i would never want to think someone was
with me and didn’t want to be there


SoftLord: if someone were to be suckin on cock
like they were drowning and cum was oxygen…
thats something… more than just "oh jeez, he
wants it again… oh well gotta go get it over
with… he DID go to the opera with me"

chrrybmbnyc: problems???

chrrybmbnyc: we won’t go to the opera

SoftLord: lol… just as an example

SoftLord: i didn’t say MY cock

chrrybmbnyc: one can only assume

SoftLord: i was stating a hypothetical situation
about nobody in particular 馃槢


chrrybmbnyc: : P right back

SoftLord: ever watch Six Feet Under?

chrrybmbnyc: yes love it

SoftLord: i have these great remixes of the main
title theme


chrrybmbnyc: ooohh impressive

SoftLord: i was offering to send them to you, not
showin off my wares 馃槢

chrrybmbnyc: send away and show me your wears

softlord wants to send file G:\Download\Napster\-
Singles\thomas newman – six feet under\Thomas
Newman – Six Feet Under (Ananda Project
Mix).mp3
.

chrrybmbnyc: very cool

SoftLord: ah ha! connection!

chrrybmbnyc: it’s transferring

SoftLord: i’m filling you up with music

chrrybmbnyc: i was about to make a "filling up"
reference but hesitated

SoftLord: oh… well i guess one of us had to take
it


chrrybmbnyc: i left it for you

SoftLord: gotta be quick on the trigger, C

chrrybmbnyc: oh i’m quick on the trigger – didn’t know if
you could handle it

SoftLord: *looks at you* i have not yet begun to
get dirty 馃槈


chrrybmbnyc: *looks back* go for it

SoftLord: dont think i wont

chrrybmbnyc: ooohhhh the gauntlet is down

SoftLord: you…shall…not….PASSSSSSSSSSS

chrrybmbnyc: none shall PASSSSSSSSSSSSSS

SoftLord: right

SoftLord: that too

SoftLord: and i wore my "bush is sauron, save the
shire" shirt today too


chrrybmbnyc: almost time for creamy, cherry, chocolate
cake


SoftLord: *hangs head*

SoftLord: carlins creamy cherry

SoftLord: chocolate cake

chrrybmbnyc: just where you should be

chrrybmbnyc: hold on – have to set up the dvd for lame
parents

SoftLord: where? near your creamy cherry?

SoftLord: channel 3 you morons!

SoftLord: 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc received G:\Download\Napster\-
Singles\thomas newman – six feet under\Thomas
Newman – Six Feet Under (Ananda Project
Mix).mp3
.

SoftLord: what, did you have to BUILD the dvd
player?




Auto response from chrrybmbnyc: I am away from
my computer right now.




chrrybmbnyc: good morning



Auto response from chrrybmbnyc: Ah love, thy
name is nap. Back soon, don’t miss me too much!




SoftLord: howdy

chrrybmbnyc: sorry i couldn’t chat – can’t watch a dvd
and be on the computer

SoftLord: a likely story

SoftLord: 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: what did you do instead

chrrybmbnyc: 馃槈

SoftLord: ummmm…nooothin

chrrybmbnyc: sounds interesting

SoftLord: *giggle* oh it was

chrrybmbnyc: share

SoftLord: went quotehunting…. talked music with
my friend from BET…


chrrybmbnyc: sounds like fun

SoftLord: twas

chrrybmbnyc: any quotes?

SoftLord: "No friend like music when the last
word’s spoken and every pleading is a plea in
vain; no friend like music when the heart is
broken, to mend its wings and give it flight again."
–Daniel Whitehead Hicky



SoftLord: oh i know what i wanted to make you
do


chrrybmbnyc: yes…

SoftLord: whichever email you check more
regularly… send a blank message to
splunge-subscribe@yahoogroups.com


SoftLord: its a quotes list me and my friends run

SoftLord: we send out quotes every couple of
days


chrrybmbnyc: done

chrrybmbnyc: i have some interesting quotes

SoftLord: "You cannot find yourself, only create
yourself." –Anne B. Sekel


chrrybmbnyc: "I have loved unselfishly and I have
fondled hatred with the hot tongsof hell – that’s living" –
Zora Neal Hurston

chrrybmbnyc: love that one

SoftLord: hot tongs of hell… sounds like a
scandinavian metal band


chrrybmbnyc: ha ha

SoftLord: "The most violent element in society is
ignorance." –Emma Goldman

chrrybmbnyc: "Beauty is only an invitation for abuse" –
Marilyn Monroe


SoftLord: heh… yeah i like that one too

SoftLord: "People are like stained glass windows;
they sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but
when the darkness sets in their true beauty is
revealed only if there is a light within." -Elisabeth
Kubler-Ross



chrrybmbnyc: don’t know if i can top that one

chrrybmbnyc: too early in the morning

SoftLord: its okay i’m just copy+pasting from my
collection anyway


chrrybmbnyc: and here i am pulling from memory – i see
how it goes

SoftLord: well its not my fault you dont have ’em
written down 馃槢


chrrybmbnyc: don’t have them on my home computer

SoftLord: ahh

chrrybmbnyc: i need some software to tie into my
computer at work but too lazy

SoftLord: what OS are you usin at work?

chrrybmbnyc: windows xp i think

SoftLord: microsoft makes something called
Remote Desktop Connection, which is a free
download… its a bit of a security issue for your
firewall, though….


chrrybmbnyc: what do you suggest

chrrybmbnyc: since you’re the tech guru

SoftLord: well… RDC would be okay… theres also
this program called Timbuktu that might work…
http://www.netopia.com/en-us/software/product
s/tb2/


chrrybmbnyc: should i download it – then what do i do.
not very adept at setting things up


SoftLord: client-to-client thing so it has to be on
both computers… then you have to have your
tech guy @pseudo open up one of the ports on
the firewall… it should be pretty easy for an IT
person

chrrybmbnyc: sounds easy thanks

SoftLord: dont mention it

chrrybmbnyc: gee you picked up both checks and set
me up with free software


SoftLord: i didn’t say it was free

chrrybmbnyc: touche

SoftLord: 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: =-O

SoftLord: its only money anyway

chrrybmbnyc: money is the easy thing but…

SoftLord: "The real measure of our wealth is how
much we would be worth if we lost our money."
-J.H. Jowett


chrrybmbnyc: and how many relationships would remain

SoftLord: would you still have friends

SoftLord: as billie would say

chrrybmbnyc: probably half and half – in the last 2 years
business has been a challenge so i’ve played poverty and
got rid of the hangers-on. cleaned house. i have 1-2
people in my life who would probably be there


SoftLord: a good plan

chrrybmbnyc: killed two birds with one stone

SoftLord: hopefully i’m on that list somewhere

chrrybmbnyc: you’re new to the list and unproven but on
your way


SoftLord: shootin up the charts

SoftLord: heh

SoftLord: you’ve found me out, C…i’m after your
money


chrrybmbnyc: older woman with money – i get it

SoftLord: oy

chrrybmbnyc: oy what

SoftLord: you know me enough by now… and you
know how 22-23 year old girls are… on what
planet would their company keep me interested?


chrrybmbnyc: most likely no

SoftLord: so this whole ‘older woman’
thing…whateva

chrrybmbnyc: played?

SoftLord: irrelivant

chrrybmbnyc: i see

SoftLord: woo…three‘s company season 1 coming
to dvd spring 2004

chrrybmbnyc: preodering yours

SoftLord: thats my favorite line from Friends

chrrybmbnyc: ha ha

SoftLord: phoebe’s flipping through channels and
stops
on threes company…chandler walks in,
sees whats on and says "oh, this must be the
episode of threes company where theres some
sort of misunderstanding"… phoebe takes a beat
and says "oh, then i’ve seen this one" and keeps
flipping

chrrybmbnyc: didn’t know you were a friends fan

SoftLord: it has its moment

SoftLord: s

chrrybmbnyc: ss

SoftLord: right

chrrybmbnyc: can’t forget the s

SoftLord: unless its for savings

chrrybmbnyc: very good

SoftLord: i try

chrrybmbnyc: try to please???

SoftLord: ‘course

SoftLord: and please to try

chrrybmbnyc: like the inversion

SoftLord: i tr—no, i think we just did that

chrrybmbnyc: yes – can’t repeat things if you want to
keep the attention of an older woman


SoftLord: now you’re just baiting me

chrrybmbnyc: it’s fun

SoftLord: i do catch on eventually

SoftLord: hehe

chrrybmbnyc: you catch on faster than most

SoftLord: most people are idiots

chrrybmbnyc: a sad fact

chrrybmbnyc: sun is coming out

chrrybmbnyc: yeah

SoftLord: woo

SoftLord: did you get to the remix i sent?

chrrybmbnyc: no i haven’t – just talking about it with
adam


chrrybmbnyc: have to find it now – can’t remember where
i put it

SoftLord: the memory is the first thing to go

chrrybmbnyc: fuck you

SoftLord: pay cash up front like everyone else

SoftLord: *duck*

chrrybmbnyc: is that how you make extra cash

SoftLord: a nickel at a time…a nickel at a time

chrrybmbnyc: just a nickel – within my budget

SoftLord: for you, $10

SoftLord: first one’s free tho

chrrybmbnyc: why do i pay more than the 22-23 year
old girls


chrrybmbnyc: like a drug dealer – but you must hae to
put in a lot of effort. if i don’t like the freebie then why
would i pay for it


chrrybmbnyc: what’s the name of the music file you
sent

SoftLord: hold

chrrybmbnyc: hold what

SoftLord: your horses

SoftLord: Thomas Newman – Six Feet Under
(Ananda Project Mix).mp3

chrrybmbnyc: searching will find it

SoftLord: er…yes

SoftLord: My Aim…Edit Options…Edit
Preferences…File Transfer will tell you as well


SoftLord: unless you moved it

chrrybmbnyc: thought it would go into my shared folder

chrrybmbnyc: playing now

chrrybmbnyc: do you play this when you’re getting giggy

SoftLord: na na na na nana na

chrrybmbnyc: knew you were a freak

SoftLord: you have no idea

SoftLord: hehe

chrrybmbnyc: a glimpse

SoftLord: its tropical, i think… ananda project is
really good


SoftLord: and i loooove me some thomas newman

chrrybmbnyc: that’s not freaky enough

SoftLord: didn’t know i was supposed to be being
freaky

chrrybmbnyc: just following the crumbs

softlord wants to send file G:\Download\Napster\-
Singles\thomas newman – six feet under\Thomas
Newm

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chrrybmbnyc: um hum

SoftLord: well now you’ve given me something
new to think about 馃檪


SoftLord: er… or not to think about

chrrybmbnyc: not my intention but ok

chrrybmbnyc: now me

SoftLord: whats your thing?

chrrybmbnyc: uh hmmm

SoftLord: hmmm… well…

SoftLord: let me know if i’m totally off base

chrrybmbnyc: go ahead

SoftLord: you’re too smart for your own good,
people dont expect it from you because you’re
also a hot girl… you tend to use over-the-top
stuff to keep people at a distance… you’ve
probably loved someone too much in the past and
taken a lot of shit, but you’re still idealistic that
the right person will come around and it’ll all
click… you like testing people… but under it all
you still have the ‘i want to be swept off my feet
in a parade of rosepetals’… but would never think
of giving up your self-reliance


chrrybmbnyc: very observant – i like that. you’re pretty
much on point

chrrybmbnyc: except

chrrybmbnyc: that jumbled up in all that i’m also a minx and like to play too much

SoftLord: define minx

chrrybmbnyc: minx: love to tease, play practical jokes, engage in verbal battles of wit, never takes anything too seriously

SoftLord: you like the attention on a physical level because then they dont know about your vastly superior intellect, so you have control

chrrybmbnyc: sounds about right

SoftLord: nothing wrong with that

chrrybmbnyc: good to know

SoftLord: then again, now that i know that, it mostly wont work on me 馃檪

SoftLord: but i think it takes on a more interesting dynamic when the other person is aware of just how much else is going on

chrrybmbnyc: sometimes even if you know the truth you’re still drawn to the flame

SoftLord: it adds blues and greens to the flame where most people only see yellow

chrrybmbnyc: favorite color?

SoftLord: green

SoftLord: well, other than black

chrrybmbnyc: my favorite color is green too

chrrybmbnyc: uh oh

SoftLord: get out of my head 馃槢

chrrybmbnyc: too late : P

chrrybmbnyc: guess you like my green eyes then

SoftLord: yup

SoftLord: mine change color…sometimes they’re green

chrrybmbnyc: good to know – can’t resist they eyes

chrrybmbnyc: when are they green?

SoftLord: passionate moments

SoftLord: i think

chrrybmbnyc: or you’ve been told

SoftLord: i never stop to ask

SoftLord: well not just that kind of passion… like anger too

chrrybmbnyc: my eyes turn blue when i cry

chrrybmbnyc: not a big crier so hasn’t happened often

SoftLord: thats poetic… like the yellow of the sun has melted away

SoftLord: and left only the blue

chrrybmbnyc: never thought of it like that – but very true

SoftLord: 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: :'(

SoftLord: aw *kisses your eyes* dont cry

SoftLord: its only teenage wasteland

chrrybmbnyc: again welld one

chrrybmbnyc: done

SoftLord: i missed a line

SoftLord: but…

SoftLord: 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: so i think it may be time to hit the gym
again

SoftLord: wat did the gym ever do to you

SoftLord: what did, rather

chrrybmbnyc: keep my ass firm

SoftLord: well, i can support that

chrrybmbnyc: you know i’m not a young girl so i have to
keep in shape


SoftLord: i’m not even going to dignify that with a
response


chrrybmbnyc: come on….

SoftLord: well really… what do you have, like
another 6 months? and then you might as well be
dead

SoftLord: *giggles*

SoftLord: silly girl fishing for compliments

SoftLord: "quite hot" is always in my description
of you to other people…. its not the first thing,
but its on the list

SoftLord: and you know what would make that
easier… a PICTURE 馃槢


SoftLord: SoftLord: well really… what do you
have, like another 6 months? and then you might
as well be dead

SoftLord: *giggles*

SoftLord: silly girl fishing for compliments

SoftLord: "quite hot" is always in my description
of you to other people…. its not the first thing,
but its on the list

SoftLord: and you know what would make that
easier… a PICTURE 馃槢

SoftLord: my DSL connection and i are not on
speaking terms


SoftLord: fine… keep that ass firm, see if i care

SoftLord: oh wait i do… okay…

SoftLord: bbiab

chrrybmbnyc: what’s bbiab



Auto response from chrrybmbnyc: Back in a bit…




SoftLord: be back in a bit

SoftLord: er…thats what bbiab means\

SoftLord: and now i’ve missed you

SoftLord: and as usual i’ve gotten nothing
accomplished




Auto response from chrrybmbnyc: I am away from
my computer right now.





chrrybmbnyc: hey you

chrrybmbnyc: now i’ve missed you too

chrrybmbnyc: drats

SoftLord: d’oh

SoftLord: dont you hate when that happens

SoftLord: okay come back here, IM tag is no fun

chrrybmbnyc: tag you’re it

SoftLord: so my computer plays the runaways
singin "hello daddy, hello mom" whenever you sign
on or come back from away


chrrybmbnyc: very cool

chrrybmbnyc: what should your sound bite be??

SoftLord: as long as its not pearl jam 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: i hate pearl jam

chrrybmbnyc: maybe some concrete blond

SoftLord: *raises eyebrow* hmmm…

SoftLord: sorry… "Ten" is one of my top 5 albums
ever


chrrybmbnyc: or maybe something much more naughty

SoftLord: they declined swiftly after that one,
though

chrrybmbnyc: i hate it when that happens

SoftLord: maybe…

SoftLord: whats more naughty than concrete
blond


chrrybmbnyc: i have lots of nuaghty music

chrrybmbnyc: i’ll have to give this one some thought

SoftLord: take your time, i’m not goin anywhere

chrrybmbnyc: hhhmmm

chrrybmbnyc: so what were you doing while i was
getting all sweaty

SoftLord: getting all sweaty

chrrybmbnyc: how??

SoftLord: heh.. and once again not getting done
what i was supposed to get done this weekend…
you’re a bad influence


SoftLord: not cause of anything exciting…my
house is warm and i was doing laundry

chrrybmbnyc: what have you been neglecting?

chrrybmbnyc: love a man that does laundry

SoftLord: well it does need to get done after all

SoftLord: who’s gonna do it, my dad?

chrrybmbnyc: or the korean laundromat

SoftLord: oh..i have a washer/dryer in my house

chrrybmbnyc: so do i

chrrybmbnyc: i prefer to do my own laundry

chrrybmbnyc: good for the soul to take care of youself

chrrybmbnyc: r

SoftLord: so you dont have to explain the frilly
lace panties that say "enter here" with a down
arrow to the nice old korean lady

chrrybmbnyc: how did you know that i like slogans on
the front of my panties?


SoftLord: yes it is… i spoil myself worse than
anyone i know…


SoftLord: i guessed….

chrrybmbnyc: good gues

SoftLord: you’re like me and t-shirts

SoftLord: i thought you were a thong kinda gal
anyway


chrrybmbnyc: yes i prefer thongs – no panty lines.
panty lines are so tacky


SoftLord: ja

SoftLord: well…i dunno

chrrybmbnyc: about?

SoftLord: depends…sometimes they can be cute
if they’re intentional


chrrybmbnyc: like black full panties under something
sheer

SoftLord: yea

SoftLord: like that

chrrybmbnyc: that’s an outfit – thongs are real underwear

SoftLord: hehe… okay, we were talking function
rather than style

chrrybmbnyc: style mandates the use of lingerie as
clothing – always a crowd pleaser


SoftLord: sue used to drag me shopping to
victorias secret about 3 hours before we’d go out
clubbing cause she needed an outfit


chrrybmbnyc: good girl

SoftLord: heh… no… bad girl… but fun

chrrybmbnyc: i’ve graduated from victorias secret

SoftLord: wow… whats next?

chrrybmbnyc: she’d love agent provocateur on green
street – great corsets


SoftLord: will have to take her there then…

chrrybmbnyc: lots of fun

SoftLord: she’s going to egypt directly from here
馃檨


SoftLord: *Sigh*

chrrybmbnyc: when does she leave?

SoftLord: for grad school

chrrybmbnyc: scary

chrrybmbnyc: what course of study

SoftLord: she’s in new orleans now (lives/d there)… coming up this thursday… staying for 2 weeks i think.. .and then off

SoftLord: anthropology

chrrybmbnyc: then that’s the spot

SoftLord: yup

chrrybmbnyc: any plans for those 2 days

SoftLord: just graduated from loyola and tulane with a double major

SoftLord: 2 weeks

chrrybmbnyc: so you have time to prepare

SoftLord: well we’ll prolly hang out as much as possible cause she can’t come back for awhile since its so expensive… trying not to think about it

chrrybmbnyc: you could take a trip

chrrybmbnyc: it’s off-season

SoftLord: yup… but i used to go to new orleans like twice or three times a year

chrrybmbnyc: great to have a friend in new orleans

SoftLord: some of us dont have as much disposable income as others 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: generally, i don’t take any cash out of my business but if something comes up like Sardinia – i can go

SoftLord: i have bunches of friends in new orleans now…been there like 10 or 11 times… the city likes me… never felt a more pervasive
consciousness than the city of new orleans… you can totally tell if it wants you to be there…


chrrybmbnyc: its a very powerful city

chrrybmbnyc: great underground culture

SoftLord: yup

chrrybmbnyc: you sound so blue

SoftLord: i’m green 馃槢

chrrybmbnyc: green with envy?

SoftLord: what would i be envious of?

SoftLord: hey wow i stopped myself from making a corny joke…woo

chrrybmbnyc: and has control too

chrrybmbnyc: not bad

SoftLord: heh…every once in awhile

chrrybmbnyc: dinner??

SoftLord: ahh…a good question

chrrybmbnyc: i’m having chicken parmesan – jealous

SoftLord: sandwich or over pasta?

SoftLord: or some previously undetermined option

chrrybmbnyc: pasta

SoftLord: linguini?

chrrybmbnyc: yes

SoftLord: with garlic e oglio?

chrrybmbnyc: red sauce

SoftLord: ahhh

SoftLord: sounds yummy

chrrybmbnyc: can’t wait to eat it

SoftLord: i know that feeling

chrrybmbnyc: it was a very relaxing weekend – you?

SoftLord: definitely memorable 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: memorable for me too:-)

SoftLord: should i bug you about pictures again?
馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: after we finish chatting i plan to post one

SoftLord: ooooh… tricky.

chrrybmbnyc: hhmmm do you sacrifice the chat for the
picture


chrrybmbnyc: i think you’ve forgotten what i look like

SoftLord: you’re like 5’4 and blonde with like a
kangol hat, right?


chrrybmbnyc: ha ha

SoftLord: 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: you suck

SoftLord: you suck 馃槢

chrrybmbnyc: i think you need a good slap

SoftLord: yeah but i’d probably just enjoy it

chrrybmbnyc: i hate that

SoftLord: sowwy

SoftLord: how can i ever make it up to ya

chrrybmbnyc: now that’s interesting

chrrybmbnyc: can a save the "get out of fail free" card

chrrybmbnyc: when i think of something good

SoftLord: boy jeremy, be careful what you wish
for


chrrybmbnyc: speaking to yourself or to me?

SoftLord: myself, out loud

SoftLord: so really to you as well

chrrybmbnyc: well i need more time to know what to
wish for


SoftLord: take all the time you need

chrrybmbnyc: i will

chrrybmbnyc: do you like orchids

SoftLord: i do

chrrybmbnyc: i used to have a great green house filled
with orchids


SoftLord: nice.. grew them yourself?

chrrybmbnyc: yes

SoftLord: thats a lot of work

chrrybmbnyc: somehow i had a touch with orchids – but
no other plant


chrrybmbnyc: i like to work

SoftLord: i’m impressed

chrrybmbnyc: why thank you

SoftLord: you’re multi-talented

chrrybmbnyc: and ambidextrous

chrrybmbnyc: if that’s how you spell it

chrrybmbnyc: rusty

SoftLord: i’m ambidextrous but only in my left
hand


chrrybmbnyc: are you left-handed

SoftLord: yup

chrrybmbnyc: knew it

SoftLord: left-handed people are very creative

chrrybmbnyc: well that works for your extracurricular
activities tooooo

SoftLord: *giggle* it does…

SoftLord: then i can use my right and it feels like
someone else


chrrybmbnyc: now that would be interesting to watch

SoftLord: do you like watching guys jerk off?

chrrybmbnyc: not particularly – but it sounds unique

SoftLord: ah

chrrybmbnyc: have we talked about grooming?

chrrybmbnyc: i think we did

SoftLord: we have

SoftLord: yea..that first weekend

chrrybmbnyc: bad carlin bad carlin

SoftLord: *laff*… well now i’m on to you

SoftLord: 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: you’re gonna get it:-P

SoftLord: i certainly hope so

chrrybmbnyc: be careful what you wish for, jeremy

SoftLord: ah yes… we covered that already

chrrybmbnyc: oh no we’re starting to get repetitive

chrrybmbnyc: what should we do?

SoftLord: well obviously we’ve run our course with
each other, so we should probably just part
company

chrrybmbnyc: and sardonic too

chrrybmbnyc: kind of frisky

SoftLord: oh i’m sorry, you’re still talking to me?

SoftLord: 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: fuck you:-X

SoftLord: *giggle* :*

chrrybmbnyc: i’ll throw out a new question

SoftLord: shoot

chrrybmbnyc: most embarrassing experience

SoftLord: hmmm…

SoftLord: i dunno… i’m not that easily
embarrassed anymore… i’ll give you an anecdote
about it if you like


chrrybmbnyc: i like

SoftLord: so i was in my bosses office last
like…wednesday… and was in a rush to get
something to jackie, our head lawyer… so i’m
like… stalking out of his office toward legal which
is like 10 feet away and suddenly i slip on
something, stumble into the wall in an attempt to
get my footing back, slide on a stray basketball
that happened to be sitting there and go crashing
into a box of files


SoftLord: so i pick myself up, dust myself off, bow
left and right, say "thank you ladies and
gentleman, i’ll be here all week" and walk out


chrrybmbnyc: that’s great – i love a good slip and fall

SoftLord: cause, you know, whatever…everybody
trips


SoftLord: might as well make it funny

chrrybmbnyc: i have this thing were i laugh
uncontrollably if i see someone fall – even children


chrrybmbnyc: i have a better one

SoftLord: plus i was in theater classes all through
junior high and high school, i know how to fall


chrrybmbnyc: interesting

SoftLord: mostly on the tech side… i can run
pretty much any lighting or sound board anywhere


SoftLord: and do set design

SoftLord: anyway… your story?

chrrybmbnyc: good to know – we’re always looking for
tech guys with your skills


chrrybmbnyc: i was at a company christmas party. I
was wearing this long velvet dress that was cut out on the
sides. very sexy. i got completely trashed and was
dancing all night. unbeknownst to me my dress had
pulled slightly to the right and my left breast was
exposed.


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August 11th, 2003 at 10:06 am

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SoftLord: *yawn*

chrrybmbnyc: *yawn*

SoftLord: well hello there stranger 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: what are you up to this lovely day??

SoftLord: gotta go in to work 馃檨

chrrybmbnyc: oh no

chrrybmbnyc: all work and no play

SoftLord: well gee, i would play if i could find ya
during the week 馃槈

SoftLord: hehe

chrrybmbnyc: this was a week from hell

chrrybmbnyc: what are you going in for??

SoftLord: need to send out a newsletter

SoftLord: so i only need to be in for like a half
hour


chrrybmbnyc: can’t do it from home

SoftLord: our SMTP server is only open to people
on our subnet


chrrybmbnyc: ooohhhh fancy security

SoftLord: lol…obnoxious is more like it 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: I can access our SMTP server from
home – jealous?


SoftLord: well…ummm…. i can pee standing up!

chrrybmbnyc: you got me there

SoftLord: i mean i guess you could too it would
just be messier


SoftLord: unless you’re into that kind of thing

chrrybmbnyc: yellow showers?

SoftLord: golden, i think they’re called

chrrybmbnyc: right..

chrrybmbnyc: you would know

SoftLord: *raises eyebrow* one must be
well-informed 馃槢


chrrybmbnyc: or well-practiced

chrrybmbnyc: i have a bone to pick with you

SoftLord: pick any one you like

chrrybmbnyc: i was watching the footage of
Ambulance and someone is conspicuously in ever shot


chrrybmbnyc: didn’t know you were a camera hog
*oink*

SoftLord: hey, ask stephen and adam, they were
the ones filmin


chrrybmbnyc: blaming the cameraman

SoftLord: am i the only one who doesn’t call him
Steve, BTW?


chrrybmbnyc: what’s BTW?

SoftLord: by the way

chrrybmbnyc: learn something new every time we chat

chrrybmbnyc: steve’s a weinie

SoftLord: i hope thats not the most interesting
thing you learn this time

chrrybmbnyc: so do i

SoftLord: thats funny, he said the same thing
about you


chrrybmbnyc: he’s just jealous

SoftLord: how could he not be

chrrybmbnyc: flattery will get you everywhere

SoftLord: dont think i dont know it

chrrybmbnyc: seems like flattery is your specialty

SoftLord: will it get me your cell number, though

SoftLord: i just like people i like to feel good

chrrybmbnyc: oooh asking for the cell number – very
bold


chrrybmbnyc: impressed

SoftLord: well gee…you dont answer IMs over the
week… you dont pickup your phone at work…
how else am i supposed to get my Carlin fix?

SoftLord: its become a constant struggle to wait
til the weekends


SoftLord: 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: am i teasing you too much

SoftLord: is that what that i

SoftLord: s

chrrybmbnyc: don’t forget the "s" – very important

SoftLord: you dont have to not be around in order
for me to want to talk to you

chrrybmbnyc: very clever retort

SoftLord: tis the truth

SoftLord: albeit cleverly phrased 馃槢

chrrybmbnyc: that’s why i love chatting with you…

chrrybmbnyc: love clever boys

SoftLord: i’m much more fun in person 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: upping the anty – are we?

chrrybmbnyc: is that how you spell "upping"?

SoftLord: yes

SoftLord: but not how you spell ante

chrrybmbnyc: never conjugated "up


SoftLord: what do you usually do with ‘up’

chrrybmbnyc: get it there

SoftLord: true…true…

chrrybmbnyc: true?

SoftLord: you do have a talent\

chrrybmbnyc: i try

SoftLord: you do well

chrrybmbnyc: thank you sir

SoftLord: oooh…. you can call me sir anytime

SoftLord: heh

chrrybmbnyc: formality is intriguing

SoftLord: or, you know…’Master…

chrrybmbnyc: do you get "master" often???

SoftLord: only afterward…

chrrybmbnyc: another clever retort – well rested???

SoftLord: its all your fault… i actually ahve to
think when i’m talkin to ya


chrrybmbnyc: i try to stimulate

SoftLord: well you are a cunning linguist

SoftLord: oh dear…that old gag

chrrybmbnyc: all i can think about now are tongues

SoftLord: tongues are good

chrrybmbnyc: when used properly

SoftLord: but of course

chrrybmbnyc: what’s more important: pressure or
moisture?


SoftLord: if the right combination of pressures are
applied, moisture ceases to be an issue


chrrybmbnyc: pressure is everything

chrrybmbnyc: and the application of pressure

SoftLord: tension

chrrybmbnyc: love tension

SoftLord: my favorite moment possibly in
existance is that half-second right before a first
kiss… where it hasn’t happened yet but its like…
inevitable on both sides


chrrybmbnyc: yes we’ve talked about this before

SoftLord: yes

chrrybmbnyc: you like to savor the moment before it
happens – says alot about you


SoftLord: hmmm…interesting… i do that
elsewhere as well


chrrybmbnyc: do tell

SoftLord: like… i love the beat right after the
post-breakdown buildup in dance music right
before the kick drum comes back in…that like…
highest point of tension before the release


chrrybmbnyc: so you like to dangle on the edge

SoftLord: you’re very perceptive

SoftLord: oh i live on the edge, baby…i’m a loner,
a rebel

chrrybmbnyc: rebels are always appreciated

SoftLord: heh

SoftLord: also people who quote pee-wee’s big
adventure


chrrybmbnyc: ha ha

chrrybmbnyc: any plans today?

SoftLord: sorta….

chrrybmbnyc: and…

SoftLord: waiting for jackie to call me so she can
let me in to work..and then tonight my friend joey
is gonna come over and help fine-tune my
turntable

chrrybmbnyc: is joey a girl or a boy?

SoftLord: boy

SoftLord: and married

SoftLord: and that wasn’t a metaphor

SoftLord: or a euphemism

SoftLord: hehe

chrrybmbnyc: you’re on quite a roll today

SoftLord: what can i say….

chrrybmbnyc: overactive mind – terrible thing

SoftLord: tell me about it

chrrybmbnyc: question: have you ever been told that
you’re too smart?


SoftLord: all the time… that and ‘you think too
much’

chrrybmbnyc: i hate that

SoftLord: i’m sure people tell you that all the time
too


chrrybmbnyc: what does it really mean though

SoftLord: people seem to think i dont know how
to relax and have fun

chrrybmbnyc: see i think i have more fun and am more
relaxed than anyone – I enjoy thinking too much


SoftLord: i just dont find ‘fun’ in the same things
that the people who are tellin me that do


chrrybmbnyc: exactly

SoftLord: getting wasted on corona and

"woooo-hoooooooooo"-ing on avenue a is not my
idea of a good time


chrrybmbnyc: me either. i like to go out and have a
few drinks but prefer clever conversation


SoftLord: agreed

SoftLord: mellow buzz beats sloppydrunk anyday
in my book

SoftLord: and sometimes even *shock* sober! 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: i prefer sober most days but sometimes
it’s fun to get crazy


chrrybmbnyc: but i have to be careful because i get
too aggressive


SoftLord: *perks*

SoftLord: 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: depends on the situation

SoftLord: yeah

SoftLord: i’ve ended up makin out with more
friends that way…

chrrybmbnyc: liquor always brings friends together

SoftLord: true

chrrybmbnyc: so you’re on the clock

SoftLord: not yet… waiting for jackie to get up,
as i said

chrrybmbnyc: maybe i’m talking about "my" clock silly

SoftLord: ohhhhh

SoftLord: whats your clock

chrrybmbnyc: in twenty minutes i should be leaving for
the gym – don’t want to be a bad influence do you?


SoftLord: Carlin, have I ever been a bad
influence? O:-)


chrrybmbnyc: i think that you’re baiting me now

SoftLord: i am a master baiter….

SoftLord: *pauses*

chrrybmbnyc: very well done "master"

SoftLord: *giggle*

SoftLord: so 20 minutes huh

chrrybmbnyc: did leave some bread crumbs for you
though


chrrybmbnyc: i’ll be there for about 2 hours then in for
the rest of the evening


SoftLord: yippie 馃檪

SoftLord: hopefully i’ll be to work and back by
then

chrrybmbnyc: haven’t got a "yippie" in a while

chrrybmbnyc: hopefully…

SoftLord: i was debating a ‘yippie skippy’… didn’t
know how you’d take that tho

chrrybmbnyc: i don’t think i’ve ever gotten a "yippie
skippy"


chrrybmbnyc: feel privileged

SoftLord: It says something, Carlin, that already
talking to you has been pretty much the highlight
of my week


SoftLord: just, you know, for the record 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: you mean for the browning up for the
cell #


SoftLord: hey i never asked you for the cell
number, i just asked whether flattery would get it


chrrybmbnyc: are you sure you’re not a lawyer

SoftLord: lol… i’m not… tho whenever anyone
asks me "do you nkow what time it is" i always
say "yes"

chrrybmbnyc: so you’re a wise ass then – you have to
get your JD to go from a wise ass to a lawyer


SoftLord: you’re welcome to set your own
schedule for our interaction
, whatever it may
be… i just miss talkin and flirtin when yuo’re not
around during the week… do take that as a
pretty high compliment, becuase of all the people
i talk to during the course, theres probably only 2
others that i acutally miss talking to, and they’re
both close enough to be family.


chrrybmbnyc: and who are "they"?

SoftLord: Alex (who i’m bringing to the s&m
fashion show) and Sue (my bestest friend in all
the world for the last 10 years)


chrrybmbnyc: Alex – i saw her picture but who’s Sue?

SoftLord: i think you might’ve met alex, she was
one of the two chicas i had with me at the BBQ


chrrybmbnyc: yes yes

chrrybmbnyc: short

SoftLord: yup

chrrybmbnyc: so you like them small and dark heh?

SoftLord: dark is good… small is optional

chrrybmbnyc: that’s right you like girls that are
"roomey"


SoftLord: i dont really have a physical ‘type’.. do
you?


chrrybmbnyc: absolutely not

chrrybmbnyc: too many restrictions then

SoftLord: no, i just dont like to be able to play
peoples ribcages like a xylophone


chrrybmbnyc: blow blow blow

chrrybmbnyc: so should we set a schedule for
Jeremy???


SoftLord: what kind of schedule

chrrybmbnyc: a chatting schedule

SoftLord: lol…. didn’t know i needed to be
‘penciled in’


chrrybmbnyc: when are you the most spry?

SoftLord: i’m in a perpetual state of spryality

chrrybmbnyc: oooh and you can conjugate spry

chrrybmbnyc: very impressed

SoftLord: not CORRECTLY

SoftLord: i think its spryness

SoftLord: but spryality is a cooler word so i went
with that


chrrybmbnyc: maybe you’re right but i’ll take spryality

chrrybmbnyc: it sounds better

SoftLord: jinx

SoftLord: :0

SoftLord: 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: what does :0 mean?

SoftLord: it means my pinky didn’t hold down the
shift key when i was trying to type )

chrrybmbnyc: shucks. i love to learn new things but
it’s a very rare occurence


chrrybmbnyc: i just jumped ten feet

SoftLord: you should try out for the WNBA

SoftLord: why?

SoftLord: spider?

SoftLord: picture of michael jackson?

chrrybmbnyc: well i live in the country – my computer
is right by a bay window


chrrybmbnyc: and a squirrel just flew straight into the
window

SoftLord: nice

chrrybmbnyc: nails scratching and everything

chrrybmbnyc: i hate squirrels

SoftLord: evilsquirrel

SoftLord: they’re just rats with a publicist

chrrybmbnyc: i agree

chrrybmbnyc: have you ever seen a rat/squirrel?

SoftLord: no…

chrrybmbnyc: in washington square park they have
these half rats half squirrels running around


SoftLord: i dont tend to mind rats… or mice… as
long as they’re not like… scurrying around my
house… mice are adorable


SoftLord: ohhh yeah

SoftLord: we used to dose those

chrrybmbnyc: dark black with a pointey nose

chrrybmbnyc: i think it was rat rape

SoftLord: back in my youth….hehe

chrrybmbnyc: you’re so bad

SoftLord: *grin* i like to think i’m just bad enough

chrrybmbnyc: good to know

SoftLord: er… to cover a previous topic… well…
you’re just starting this online chat thing, you
said… perhaps when you get it more into your
muscle memory you could learn to multitask with
it and not have to schedule me at all… and then
it would be all Jeremy all the time


chrrybmbnyc: oohh the gauntlet is down then

chrrybmbnyc: time for me to sweat – can you wait for
me


SoftLord: it wasn’t a threat 馃槢

chrrybmbnyc: it was a promise then

SoftLord: and personally, i dont see a better
option coming along any time soon

chrrybmbnyc: maybe you just don’t see it yet

SoftLord: er… that was meant as flattery, dont
think it came out right


SoftLord: oh well

chrrybmbnyc: don’t you hate it when that happens

SoftLord: well i think you do okay from me 馃槈

SoftLord: so far

SoftLord: and i haven’t even whined about you
putting up a pic on friendster today 馃槢


chrrybmbnyc: i only have two sets of pictures: sexy
and business

chrrybmbnyc: couldn’t decide

chrrybmbnyc: i was looking for something mysterious
like your photo


SoftLord: business for friendster sexy for me? 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: i see….

SoftLord: lol

chrrybmbnyc: got to go though

chrrybmbnyc: i’m losing my fervor to work out

chrrybmbnyc: be back soon

SoftLord: i’m sure even your business ones are
sexy…there is a certain minimum


chrrybmbnyc: and he draws me back in

chrrybmbnyc: very bad influence

SoftLord: okay go… if i’m not here when you get
back, expect me to be back soon… i would be
amiss if we didn’t get to continue this today

SoftLord: and it would probably ruin the rest of
my weekend


SoftLord: no pressure, of course… 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: you’ll hear from me

chrrybmbnyc: lol

SoftLord: and just for the record, you do have MY
cell numbenr


chrrybmbnyc: i do?

SoftLord: i left it with that voicemail about the
irving plaza show


chrrybmbnyc: that’s right

chrrybmbnyc: promise i won’t prank call you late at
night


chrrybmbnyc: be back soon

SoftLord: well wahts the fun in promising that

SoftLord: okay go!

chrrybmbnyc: bye

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August 10th, 2003 at 10:00 am

Posted in Old Chat Logs

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SoftLord: *yawn*

chrrybmbnyc: *yawn*

SoftLord: well hello there stranger 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: what are you up to this lovely day??

SoftLord: gotta go in to work 馃檨

chrrybmbnyc: oh no

chrrybmbnyc: all work and no play

SoftLord: well gee, i would play if i could find ya
during the week 馃槈

SoftLord: hehe

chrrybmbnyc: this was a week from hell

chrrybmbnyc: what are you going in for??

SoftLord: need to send out a newsletter

SoftLord: so i only need to be in for like a half
hour


chrrybmbnyc: can’t do it from home

SoftLord: our SMTP server is only open to people
on our subnet


chrrybmbnyc: ooohhhh fancy security

SoftLord: lol…obnoxious is more like it 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: I can access our SMTP server from
home – jealous?


SoftLord: well…ummm…. i can pee standing up!

chrrybmbnyc: you got me there

SoftLord: i mean i guess you could too it would
just be messier


SoftLord: unless you’re into that kind of thing

chrrybmbnyc: yellow showers?

SoftLord: golden, i think they’re called

chrrybmbnyc: right..

chrrybmbnyc: you would know

SoftLord: *raises eyebrow* one must be
well-informed 馃槢


chrrybmbnyc: or well-practiced

chrrybmbnyc: i have a bone to pick with you

SoftLord: pick any one you like

chrrybmbnyc: i was watching the footage of
Ambulance and someone is conspicuously in ever shot


chrrybmbnyc: didn’t know you were a camera hog
*oink*

SoftLord: hey, ask stephen and adam, they were
the ones filmin


chrrybmbnyc: blaming the cameraman

SoftLord: am i the only one who doesn’t call him
Steve, BTW?


chrrybmbnyc: what’s BTW?

SoftLord: by the way

chrrybmbnyc: learn something new every time we chat

chrrybmbnyc: steve’s a weinie

SoftLord: i hope thats not the most interesting
thing you learn this time

chrrybmbnyc: so do i

SoftLord: thats funny, he said the same thing
about you


chrrybmbnyc: he’s just jealous

SoftLord: how could he not be

chrrybmbnyc: flattery will get you everywhere

SoftLord: dont think i dont know it

chrrybmbnyc: seems like flattery is your specialty

SoftLord: will it get me your cell number, though

SoftLord: i just like people i like to feel good

chrrybmbnyc: oooh asking for the cell number – very
bold


chrrybmbnyc: impressed

SoftLord: well gee…you dont answer IMs over the
week… you dont pickup your phone at work…
how else am i supposed to get my Carlin fix?

SoftLord: its become a constant struggle to wait
til the weekends


SoftLord: 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: am i teasing you too much

SoftLord: is that what that i

SoftLord: s

chrrybmbnyc: don’t forget the "s" – very important

SoftLord: you dont have to not be around in order
for me to want to talk to you

chrrybmbnyc: very clever retort

SoftLord: tis the truth

SoftLord: albeit cleverly phrased 馃槢

chrrybmbnyc: that’s why i love chatting with you…

chrrybmbnyc: love clever boys

SoftLord: i’m much more fun in person 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: upping the anty – are we?

chrrybmbnyc: is that how you spell "upping"?

SoftLord: yes

SoftLord: but not how you spell ante

chrrybmbnyc: never conjugated "up


SoftLord: what do you usually do with ‘up’

chrrybmbnyc: get it there

SoftLord: true…true…

chrrybmbnyc: true?

SoftLord: you do have a talent\

chrrybmbnyc: i try

SoftLord: you do well

chrrybmbnyc: thank you sir

SoftLord: oooh…. you can call me sir anytime

SoftLord: heh

chrrybmbnyc: formality is intriguing

SoftLord: or, you know…’Master…

chrrybmbnyc: do you get "master" often???

SoftLord: only afterward…

chrrybmbnyc: another clever retort – well rested???

SoftLord: its all your fault… i actually ahve to
think when i’m talkin to ya


chrrybmbnyc: i try to stimulate

SoftLord: well you are a cunning linguist

SoftLord: oh dear…that old gag

chrrybmbnyc: all i can think about now are tongues

SoftLord: tongues are good

chrrybmbnyc: when used properly

SoftLord: but of course

chrrybmbnyc: what’s more important: pressure or
moisture?


SoftLord: if the right combination of pressures are
applied, moisture ceases to be an issue


chrrybmbnyc: pressure is everything

chrrybmbnyc: and the application of pressure

SoftLord: tension

chrrybmbnyc: love tension

SoftLord: my favorite moment possibly in
existance is that half-second right before a first
kiss… where it hasn’t happened yet but its like…
inevitable on both sides


chrrybmbnyc: yes we’ve talked about this before

SoftLord: yes

chrrybmbnyc: you like to savor the moment before it
happens – says alot about you


SoftLord: hmmm…interesting… i do that
elsewhere as well


chrrybmbnyc: do tell

SoftLord: like… i love the beat right after the
post-breakdown buildup in dance music right
before the kick drum comes back in…that like…
highest point of tension before the release


chrrybmbnyc: so you like to dangle on the edge

SoftLord: you’re very perceptive

SoftLord: oh i live on the edge, baby…i’m a loner,
a rebel

chrrybmbnyc: rebels are always appreciated

SoftLord: heh

SoftLord: also people who quote pee-wee’s big
adventure


chrrybmbnyc: ha ha

chrrybmbnyc: any plans today?

SoftLord: sorta….

chrrybmbnyc: and…

SoftLord: waiting for jackie to call me so she can
let me in to work..and then tonight my friend joey
is gonna come over and help fine-tune my
turntable

chrrybmbnyc: is joey a girl or a boy?

SoftLord: boy

SoftLord: and married

SoftLord: and that wasn’t a metaphor

SoftLord: or a euphemism

SoftLord: hehe

chrrybmbnyc: you’re on quite a roll today

SoftLord: what can i say….

chrrybmbnyc: overactive mind – terrible thing

SoftLord: tell me about it

chrrybmbnyc: question: have you ever been told that
you’re too smart?


SoftLord: all the time… that and ‘you think too
much’

chrrybmbnyc: i hate that

SoftLord: i’m sure people tell you that all the time
too


chrrybmbnyc: what does it really mean though

SoftLord: people seem to think i dont know how
to relax and have fun

chrrybmbnyc: see i think i have more fun and am more
relaxed than anyone – I enjoy thinking too much


SoftLord: i just dont find ‘fun’ in the same things
that the people who are tellin me that do


chrrybmbnyc: exactly

SoftLord: getting wasted on corona and

"woooo-hoooooooooo"-ing on avenue a is not my
idea of a good time


chrrybmbnyc: me either. i like to go out and have a
few drinks but prefer clever conversation


SoftLord: agreed

SoftLord: mellow buzz beats sloppydrunk anyday
in my book

SoftLord: and sometimes even *shock* sober! 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: i prefer sober most days but sometimes
it’s fun to get crazy


chrrybmbnyc: but i have to be careful because i get
too aggressive


SoftLord: *perks*

SoftLord: 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: depends on the situation

SoftLord: yeah

SoftLord: i’ve ended up makin out with more
friends that way…

chrrybmbnyc: liquor always brings friends together

SoftLord: true

chrrybmbnyc: so you’re on the clock

SoftLord: not yet… waiting for jackie to get up,
as i said

chrrybmbnyc: maybe i’m talking about "my" clock silly

SoftLord: ohhhhh

SoftLord: whats your clock

chrrybmbnyc: in twenty minutes i should be leaving for
the gym – don’t want to be a bad influence do you?


SoftLord: Carlin, have I ever been a bad
influence? O:-)


chrrybmbnyc: i think that you’re baiting me now

SoftLord: i am a master baiter….

SoftLord: *pauses*

chrrybmbnyc: very well done "master"

SoftLord: *giggle*

SoftLord: so 20 minutes huh

chrrybmbnyc: did leave some bread crumbs for you
though


chrrybmbnyc: i’ll be there for about 2 hours then in for
the rest of the evening


SoftLord: yippie 馃檪

SoftLord: hopefully i’ll be to work and back by
then

chrrybmbnyc: haven’t got a "yippie" in a while

chrrybmbnyc: hopefully…

SoftLord: i was debating a ‘yippie skippy’… didn’t
know how you’d take that tho

chrrybmbnyc: i don’t think i’ve ever gotten a "yippie
skippy"


chrrybmbnyc: feel privileged

SoftLord: It says something, Carlin, that already
talking to you has been pretty much the highlight
of my week


SoftLord: just, you know, for the record 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: you mean for the browning up for the
cell #


SoftLord: hey i never asked you for the cell
number, i just asked whether flattery would get it


chrrybmbnyc: are you sure you’re not a lawyer

SoftLord: lol… i’m not… tho whenever anyone
asks me "do you nkow what time it is" i always
say "yes"

chrrybmbnyc: so you’re a wise ass then – you have to
get your JD to go from a wise ass to a lawyer


SoftLord: you’re welcome to set your own
schedule for our interaction
, whatever it may
be… i just miss talkin and flirtin when yuo’re not
around during the week… do take that as a
pretty high compliment, becuase of all the people
i talk to during the course, theres probably only 2
others that i acutally miss talking to, and they’re
both close enough to be family.


chrrybmbnyc: and who are "they"?

SoftLord: Alex (who i’m bringing to the s&m
fashion show) and Sue (my bestest friend in all
the world for the last 10 years)


chrrybmbnyc: Alex – i saw her picture but who’s Sue?

SoftLord: i think you might’ve met alex, she was
one of the two chicas i had with me at the BBQ


chrrybmbnyc: yes yes

chrrybmbnyc: short

SoftLord: yup

chrrybmbnyc: so you like them small and dark heh?

SoftLord: dark is good… small is optional

chrrybmbnyc: that’s right you like girls that are
"roomey"


SoftLord: i dont really have a physical ‘type’.. do
you?


chrrybmbnyc: absolutely not

chrrybmbnyc: too many restrictions then

SoftLord: no, i just dont like to be able to play
peoples ribcages like a xylophone


chrrybmbnyc: blow blow blow

chrrybmbnyc: so should we set a schedule for
Jeremy???


SoftLord: what kind of schedule

chrrybmbnyc: a chatting schedule

SoftLord: lol…. didn’t know i needed to be
‘penciled in’


chrrybmbnyc: when are you the most spry?

SoftLord: i’m in a perpetual state of spryality

chrrybmbnyc: oooh and you can conjugate spry

chrrybmbnyc: very impressed

SoftLord: not CORRECTLY

SoftLord: i think its spryness

SoftLord: but spryality is a cooler word so i went
with that


chrrybmbnyc: maybe you’re right but i’ll take spryality

chrrybmbnyc: it sounds better

SoftLord: jinx

SoftLord: :0

SoftLord: 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: what does :0 mean?

SoftLord: it means my pinky didn’t hold down the
shift key when i was trying to type )

chrrybmbnyc: shucks. i love to learn new things but
it’s a very rare occurence


chrrybmbnyc: i just jumped ten feet

SoftLord: you should try out for the WNBA

SoftLord: why?

SoftLord: spider?

SoftLord: picture of michael jackson?

chrrybmbnyc: well i live in the country – my computer
is right by a bay window


chrrybmbnyc: and a squirrel just flew straight into the
window

SoftLord: nice

chrrybmbnyc: nails scratching and everything

chrrybmbnyc: i hate squirrels

SoftLord: evilsquirrel

SoftLord: they’re just rats with a publicist

chrrybmbnyc: i agree

chrrybmbnyc: have you ever seen a rat/squirrel?

SoftLord: no…

chrrybmbnyc: in washington square park they have
these half rats half squirrels running around


SoftLord: i dont tend to mind rats… or mice… as
long as they’re not like… scurrying around my
house… mice are adorable


SoftLord: ohhh yeah

SoftLord: we used to dose those

chrrybmbnyc: dark black with a pointey nose

chrrybmbnyc: i think it was rat rape

SoftLord: back in my youth….hehe

chrrybmbnyc: you’re so bad

SoftLord: *grin* i like to think i’m just bad enough

chrrybmbnyc: good to know

SoftLord: er… to cover a previous topic… well…
you’re just starting this online chat thing, you
said… perhaps when you get it more into your
muscle memory you could learn to multitask with
it and not have to schedule me at all… and then
it would be all Jeremy all the time


chrrybmbnyc: oohh the gauntlet is down then

chrrybmbnyc: time for me to sweat – can you wait for
me


SoftLord: it wasn’t a threat 馃槢

chrrybmbnyc: it was a promise then

SoftLord: and personally, i dont see a better
option coming along any time soon

chrrybmbnyc: maybe you just don’t see it yet

SoftLord: er… that was meant as flattery, dont
think it came out right


SoftLord: oh well

chrrybmbnyc: don’t you hate it when that happens

SoftLord: well i think you do okay from me 馃槈

SoftLord: so far

SoftLord: and i haven’t even whined about you
putting up a pic on friendster today 馃槢


chrrybmbnyc: i only have two sets of pictures: sexy
and business

chrrybmbnyc: couldn’t decide

chrrybmbnyc: i was looking for something mysterious
like your photo


SoftLord: business for friendster sexy for me? 馃檪

chrrybmbnyc: i see….

SoftLord: lol

chrrybmbnyc: got to go though

chrrybmbnyc: i’m losing my fervor to work out

chrrybmbnyc: be back soon

SoftLord: i’m sure even your business ones are
sexy…there is a certain minimum


chrrybmbnyc: and he draws me back in

chrrybmbnyc: very bad influence

SoftLord: okay go… if i’m not here when you get
back, expect me to be back soon… i would be
amiss if we didn’t get to continue this today

SoftLord: and it would probably ruin the rest of
my weekend


SoftLord: no pressure, of course… 馃槈

chrrybmbnyc: you’ll hear from me

chrrybmbnyc: lol

SoftLord: and just for the record, you do have MY
cell numbenr


chrrybmbnyc: i do?

SoftLord: i left it with that voicemail about the
irving plaza show


chrrybmbnyc: that’s right

chrrybmbnyc: promise i won’t prank call you late at
night


chrrybmbnyc: be back soon

SoftLord: well wahts the fun in promising that

SoftLord: okay go!

chrrybmbnyc: bye

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August 9th, 2003 at 9:56 am